Dream 283 – SparrowCloud9

Dream 283 – God, Uriel and Father’s Day

Received on Sunday, June 17, 2018

Communion

Dear Father,

Thank You for one more day! Thank You for such a beautiful day. Thank You for all You have given us. Thank You for my Godly husband and our wonderful children. I can never thank You enough for these last four years with all of them.

To have all three of my children with me, before their time to fly on their own and navigate life, has been an amazing gift. I never thought this would have been possible, Father, and I am forever grateful.

Happy Father’s Day to all of the fathers that are reading this today as today is Father’s Day. My earthly dad passed away seven months ago. Unfortunately, I never met his standards. I was unworthy of his love, time or even his thoughts.

His young widow was left with no money to care for my dad’s body. Though she had not contacted me, I just somehow knew this was the case. This is because I had heard that my dad would invest in developments and would be highly leveraged. In turn, this would have meant that there would be very little liquid assets for her to now use.

When I prayed about this, the Lord told me to reach out to my father’s widow. While it took a bit of time searching, I was finally able to track his body to a memorial home in Florida. When I spoke to the director of the funeral home, she indicated that no one had stepped up to claim his body.

I had a small amount of money that I was saving for Christmas when You, Father, prompted me to reach out to his widow to cover the costs of his burial. She was so happy when I contacted her as, just as I had suspected, she had no money. Soon after I paid for this, the Lord opened a door and the money spent was soon replenished.

Thank You, Father, for providing all that we needed to do this for my dad and his widow. Even though my dad had completely abandoned all of us, he was still my ‘God-given father’ and it felt good to be able to do this. I had done this to honor You, Father, as all we have is Yours. While I covered the cost…well, I didn’t, You did.

All of this once again made me realize that nothing in this life is mine. There is no ‘mine’ as You have given each of us all that we have. You not only cover the cost of our existence here, but You also sent Jesus to pay the price for our eternity there.

I am in awe of You, Father! There is no father like You…not one! I could search for all eternity long and I would still find no one like You. However, You are not just our Father, You created us. When a child is born, parents do not know anything about them. In contrast, You know everything about us in advance.

Quite simply, nothing surprises You, Father. You speak a thing and it is finished even before You finish speaking it. With a thought, You can throw a mountain into the sea. With a thought, You can raise up a king or remove him.

Your Creation consists of so many impossible variables that man constantly chases it but never catches it. Man is unable to match Your complexities or mimic Your ways. No man can harness the power of You, my Father God!

You are so complex, so awesome and so perfect that I have no words to adequately describe You. I believe the only word that comes close is the word ‘love’. You, Father, love us. You love what You have created and Your ways are much higher. You are even infinitely more patient with us than we deserve.

When I look at the awesome spectacle of the nature surrounding us, I am speechless. Just look at the beauty of a hummingbird. What an amazingly complex bird! You know this bird well as You created this. This tiny, elusive jewel with wings was created by You, Father, and not by the hands of man.

You are a God of variety. There are so many various types of birds, animals, insects, fish, trees, flowers, grasses, fruits and crops that it cannot be measured. Each facet of this cut diamond of life that You have created is spectacular. While these are just the things we can see, what about that which we cannot see?

First off, there is the micro world as seen under a microscope. There is also the macro world as seen through a powerful telescope. Quite simply, the Lord has created all of this, from the tiniest of microbes to the mightiest of stars and planets.

While I am literally just a small speck of Your Creation, You still somehow love me. What I see in myself as very much lacking, You somehow see something great. Though You could do everything Your self with ease, You still want to use us.

Oh Father, though I know You have a plan for each of us, I still feel like a failure at times. As Your child, I have wanted so much to give back to You by honoring You with my successes. However, I am instead in a state of hopeless surrender to You and Your perfect plan.

Oh Father, I find it so difficult to honor You with joy when I am not well. I realize just how small I am in the great scheme of Your Creation. While I try to hide my condition with my kids, though this is not always possible as the pain can be great at times, I realize that I must still complain a lot in my heart to You.

My brain is bleeding and my head hurts because of this. I can tell things are getting worse as I can no longer do things that I could just a short time ago. It seems as if I can now only do that which You have called me to do…no more and no less.

I cling to two things these days…Your promises as my Father and Creator and Jesus as my Rock of Salvation. Father, You know my condition. While You have spent years refining my heart, it seems as if You are now refining my head and my eyesight. There is nothing that I can do apart from You, Father, so please help me.

As a mother, I look for ways that I can connect with my children. I look for gifts that I can give them or things that we can do together that they would find joyful and memorable. I delight and have so much joy when they are happy and laughing. We have so many good memories of being together as a result.

I pray that our children always remember these good times. I pray that I have given them the tools they need to survive in this world. I pray that they look to Your promises and that they stand on Your ‘Rock of Salvation’.

Father, I took some more photos of eagles last night. My husband drove me to the place where a family of eagles fish for their dinner. It was wonderful. Thank You! It is simply amazing how beautiful You have made these mighty eagles to be.

You are the most amazing Father! I wish I could hug You like I can Your Son so that You know just how much I love You. My heart is filled with love for You, Father, and I adore You so much. Thank You for refining me in the fire of affliction even though I wish there could have been a different way at times.

Still, I accept this as I now know this constant hammering produces a luster and deep patina that cannot be created artificially. As painful as it was and is, You have told me that this is the kind of depth and endurance only fire can produce.

Whether we lose or gain anything in this life, it is because You have allowed it. Whatever is lost here, we know that You will later grant infinitely more to those who love You and that You will restore all that the enemy has stolen from us and even more.

You give good things to us and care about the smallest of details in our lives. You grieve when we grieve. You smile when we smile. You hold us when we are scared. You have compassion on us and send help from Your sanctuary when we cry out.

You do not disown us when we misbehave. You do not give up on us even when we have given up on ourselves. You gently chastise us when we are in need of such a rebuke. You remind us of our place in You as a child of God. You do not delight in bringing calamity to the wicked. You delight in those who come to You for answers.

There is no greater Father than You! Thank You for the gift of more time. I pray that You will soon use my vessel for Your glory, Father, as this is all that I have left to give to You. I have already given You my heart and my life. The rest of my story is Yours.

Jesus: “Erin, come up.”

I was back on the path that leads to the Forestry Bulletin Board. I started walking towards the Board and could soon see it in the distance. I looked over to the right and saw that the pond, fountains, trees and flowers were as beautiful as the last time. The grass was a velvety carpet and must have been groomed by someone highly skilled.

I decided to bypass visiting the pond for now in order to check if there were any messages waiting for me on the Board. I saw a note posted there.

“This is the day I have made! Love God”

Me: “Hmm, this is from Psalm 118…‘I will rejoice and be glad in it.’”

Just then, I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned around and there was Uriel. I smiled at him and he smiled back.

Uriel: “God requests your presence, Erin.”

The door opened and light streamed out from within. Uriel placed something like thick honey over my eyes. He then led me through the door into God’s Court. I could hear a choir of angels singing. The song overlapped and rose up in intensity. It was so beautiful.

Choir: “Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God almighty, who was and is and is to come!”

Uriel brought me closer to God until my legs began to drop to the floor. I was now kneeling on the beautiful ‘Sea of Glass’, a living sea of blues like a giant sapphire. I began worshipping My Father in Heaven and gave praises to Him. I then started singing along with the beautiful choir of angels. I started to cry.

God: “Erin, I have heard your cries, your pleas and your petitions. I have promised to bless you and so I will. I have not revoked My promises to you. I will continue to bless and protect you. I will continue sending help from My Throne.”

Me: “Thank You, Father. I am scared.”

God: “I know. However, do not worry about the outcome as the outcome is by My design. You and your household are arrows in My quiver and I will use you. When you look back, you will understand what I have done from the beginning until the end. Take comfort that you are Mine. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned. I have already carried you through the raging waters and you were not overcome.”

Me: “Yes, Lord, but I…” I paused and took a deep breath before continuing. “…I don’t like fire.”

God: “Well then, this too is good. You will not be set ablaze nor will you be consumed by its flames.”

Me: “Thank You, Father. Oh yes…Happy Father’s Day!”

God: “Thank you, Erin.”

Me: “I wish I could give You a big hug!” I felt His laugh rumble throughout His Court.

God: “Now, I know your thoughts, Erin, and that you are becoming increasingly discouraged and tired. While you are now in great pain, just know that I will soon remove all of this.”

Me: “Oh Father, please do this sooner than later. I really need Your help. There are so many around me that also need Your help.”

God: “Yes, I know. I will take care of you. I have not forgotten you. I love you.”

Me: “Thank You, Father.”

Uriel came over to help me back to my feet. As Uriel helped me to the door, I decided to wave back at God.

Me: “I love You!”

I ‘threw’ Him a kiss of love, affection and admiration. In response, I saw what I believed to be a wave of His arm. This created the most amazing arch of light. It was like a type of rainbow, but much more beautiful and awe inspiring.

God: “I love you, Erin, and I delight in you.”

Once we left God’s Court, Uriel addressed me.

Uriel: “Tell me about the dream recently given to you that is on your heart right now.”

Me: “I saw a young man building a massive white tower with Legos. I loved it. It had these amazing moving parts and was a work of art. I could not wait to tell my son who loves Legos about this dream.”

Uriel: “The building blocks of white represents your child-like faith and wonder in your approach. In spite of this, when your children tell you ‘God loves you and He will not allow your brain condition to kill you’, how do you sometimes answer them?”

Me: “When I am in great pain, I will tell them that I do not really know what will happen.”

Uriel: “Well, Erin, that is not true. You do know as God has told you that He will heal you. You say this to your children even though they are correct. If your children, having just a fraction of understanding of God that you do, look at your condition in this manner, should you not also approach God with the same fervor?”

Me: “Yes, Uriel. I am sorry for my lack.”

Uriel: “This dream was given to you in order to show that your ‘child-like wonder for God’ has to now take over your worry. While I know that you are in pain, it is soon to be gone as this was promised by God. Now, Erin, you are to delight in God like a child again. Be still and know that He is God!”

I felt humbled and looked down at my feet as I nodded in agreement with what Uriel had just told me. When I looked up again, Uriel was no longer there. After looking around a bit and seeing that there was no longer anyone here with me, I decided to skip over to the pond and tour the beautiful fountains, trees and flowers.

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