Dream 306 – Jesus and why we could not have been healed until now
Received on Sunday, October 28, 2018
Communion
Dear Father,
I love You! You have called me friend, but, even more importantly, You are my Dad. You know me. Father, I have been crushed. I have been so sick. I have been weak and exhausted. For the first time in my life, I have relinquished my chores. At times, I can no longer even do just the basics, things that give me value.
I cannot digest food very well and I have been dealing with a horrible bitter taste in my mouth. I have somehow now developed a lump on my back left side the size of an orange. It is a hernia or some other type of frightening thing. It seems that, for some reason, my body is under attack and there is a battle raging, a war with no winners.
Father, I have been mad at you and I am sorry. I am so sorry. I cried and cried on Thursday night. I lost my balance and had stomach queasiness. I had the chills and then the sweats. My skin went quickly from bright red to pale white. It was like the days when I had pancreatitis, but still not as bad.
I went to lie down, but lying down only made me feel worse. There was no relief. I sat in bed, Father, and I cried out to You. I do not understand any of this. I know my blood pressure goes up with the pain, but I just do not understand all of it. It has been impossible to get in front of someone who can help. This is because this is right where You have me for now.
But why, Father, why? Did I do something wrong? Did I anger You? Are You now deciding that I am no longer going to see Your promises here? Oh Father, please do not forget about me. The trouble throughout the nations has increased beyond what I thought could be possible in such a short period of time.
When we were in Houlton, Maine on Friday, there was shooting between a man and some officers at the U.S.A. Canada border. It was serious enough that the border crossing was closed for most of the day. While doing our errands, we witnessed a most unusual event. We watched as a car from Canada was pulled over by customs agents.
My husband and I then sat there in stunned silence as two women were asked to come out of their car. These two women looked like Apostolic Christians or Mennonites. They were then searched right there in front of us and put into handcuffs. These women were easily in their late 60s, but there they were…being arrested. Shortly after being put into custody, their brand new, beautiful car was impounded.
I later inquired about this incident with some people we have known in the area for the last four years and they believed it all pointed to the legalization of marijuana in Canada. Apparently there has been a huge uptick in trouble for all of the states bordering with Canada. It was madness, complete madness.
I could not believe they had used the disguise of a religious group to carry out smuggling. They truly looked like the real deal. Who would suspect older women of doing this? There was no way to copy this kind of specialized dress without a huge effort. In my heart, I felt that they were doing this for money. Anyway, nothing was ever mentioned of this is in the news – neither the shooting or the problems with smuggling.
Father, I also believe that the man who sent out the pipe bombs was somehow threatened or paid to do it to get sympathizers for the left side’s agenda. If these bombs were real, then at least a few of them would have exploded. It is one of the few times that I truly believe this was a ‘false flag’ event. There were so many troubling things around the timing of this that I was left shaking my head in amazement!
I then noticed that the media was claiming that the ‘bomber’ was Caucasian. However, when I saw photos of him later on, he looked more like so many of the Seminole Indians I knew in Florida from many years ago. This did not make sense. His van was also decaled with so many things pro-Trump, anti-Democrat, it felt rigged, kind of like the left wing saying, ‘could we make this anymore obvious that we are the victims here’.
Then there is the news of the crazy man going into the Tree of Life Synagogue in Pittsburgh and killing 11 Jewish people yesterday. While murdering them, he spouted out hateful things such as ‘Death to the Jews’. While I am glad that at least this story received coverage, what about the coverage on the rhetoric that seems to be covered on the right side, but not on the left side.
Quite simply, and as just one example of many, the media completely ignores ‘Reverend’ Farrakhan, a ‘preacher’ who refers to the Jewish people as ‘cockroaches who need to be killed’. What? Seriously? These things are allowed and then we are shocked when hate is then carried out. This is all truly disgusting and it is hard for me to watch the ‘unbiased news’ that is constantly being ‘twisted for our viewing pleasure’.
Oh Father, while, at times, our President makes me squirm in discomfort, I know that You have placed him there. This must be Your Will or he would not be President…plain and simple. As Trump stands up for the Jewish people and Israel, I will, in turn, stand up for those who You have appointed. I suppose it is just that I am still somewhat in complete disbelief at the times we are now in.
Then there was the whole process of confirming Brett Kavanaugh to the Supreme Court. The media used this opportunity as a feeding frenzy against him. Whether what happened to Dr. Ford actually happened or not is not the issue here. I feel the true issue is what has happened to someone being ‘innocent until proven guilty’. The left-wing media was doing the opposite, trying to make him have to prove his innocence, ‘guilty until proven innocent’.
The other thing that bothers me is the term ‘sexual assault’ as it is being used in the media these days. The generalization here is so broad that you no longer know if someone was ‘brutally raped’ or if someone had their ‘buttocks squeezed’. Yes, I agree that no one should have their ‘buttocks squeezed’ without your permission, it is certainly not even close to the category of ‘brutally raped’, yet the same title is now used.
If this generic wording had been used back in my days in college as a waitress, I could say I have been ‘sexually assaulted’ hundreds of times. The generic term here is so general that it is almost like someone who has ‘cried wolf’ one too many times and people blank out or don’t take the words ‘sexually assaulted’ seriously anymore. The public is then desensitized and the hardened criminals are not sentenced justly.
Well, Father, You are a just judge, THE Just Judge! You see all things. You know truth from lies. Please expose all of the liars. These people out there are making all of us afraid to speak. Movies from just five years ago were completely offensive, but, in humor, things were still permissible. However, now, Father, things are removed because things offend.
Even so, it is still okay for certain groups of people to say what they want. Everything comes from a root history of offense which is now uncovered to use as weapons against those whom the enemy wants silenced. The liberal media would even have us believe that the worst thing for the U.S.A. is to have protection at our borders.
Father, there is a large group of people coming from South America that will soon try to illegally cross our southern borders. This would further weaken the U.S.A. and would fit in with the enemy’s plans. The enemy would like the U.S.A. destroyed, along with Israel. In my heart, I believe that this group of 4000 people are being sent by some very rich and powerful people.
This could result in the following scenario…the midterm election could be won by the Democrats. They will then ‘let them in’ and open our borders. This would then make all of us, even the working poor, have to pay for all of this. Then any group seeking asylum will be let into the U.S.A. without background checks. Once in the U.S.A. in sufficient numbers, these people will permeate the land and pillage it.
What many people are not aware of is that there are already ‘safe zone’ areas set up in the U.S.A. for Muslims in which U.S.A. law has no jurisdiction. These areas are ‘gated’ and no one in our government is entitled to know what is happening there. No one talks about this other than the contractors and workers who helped set these zones up. I heard this first hand from someone who sent classified items there.
If you want to see our future of continuing to allow all of this within our borders, look no further than to Europe. It is not good there. In fact, it is horrible. Then laws will be set up to allow hoards to use both Canada and Mexico as landing strips for the continued ‘soft invasion’ of the U.S.A. Only three years ago, I dismissed all of this as being impossible. Now, however, I feel that this ‘not happening’ is impossible.
The next step will surely be to remove guns from the hands of American citizens. This will then reduce or eliminate any future resistance. There are also other items on their agenda that will be encouraged, including anything that involves anti-procreation, including beefing up abortion, and encouraging same sex relationships. Watch any Hollywood movie and almost all have a message that the Earth is now ‘overcrowded’.
The agenda will also encourage and further the assault against marriage, having children and the sanctity of the family. Sons will turn away from their fathers and fathers will turn away from their sons. It is okay to dress as the opposite sex. It is okay to legally identify with anything you want, including animals and even cartoon characters. Anyone who expresses concern on this are labeled haters and face increasing danger.
The other thing that is also becoming increasingly widespread by design is the DNA testing kits. While they would have us think that this would give us information we would find interesting, there is little doubt that this is all being entered into a giant system of information on each of us to use later. This is all meant to gather information, intelligence, on who you really are.
Father, do I now have to burn everything I just wrote down above? Am I now being controversial by what I have written or observed? If the Republicans win the midterms, there will be wars at our borders versus open borders. Entire states might even annex themselves. Other than You, Father, who knows what will happen? It just seems to me that so many are furious that Trump won that it has divided the country, if not the world.
It is like all rational thought has been removed by madness, like ‘mad cow disease’, only it is now ‘angry donkey disease’. When I was a registered democrat, which I had been for the majority of my life, we seemed to be on the side which was ‘for the least of these’ in society. We took care of the lost, the poor and the disadvantaged. We believed in taxes to govern and keeping our schools with hot lunch, head start and other programs.
We believed that all of these together would help provide a level playing field and to keep all of us more even. It used to be more middle-class friendly as we lived in a country where there were industries and jobs. It seemed like the democrats were kinder and listened to the other side. Perhaps we did not agree, but we at least agreed that everyone had a right to freedom of speech.
When I say freedom of speech, this even included when offensive things happened. We believed for equality, freedom and justice. I remember not that long ago, just literally five years ago, when news was a place where I could tune in and see or hear what was happening in the U.S.A. and the world today. I could actually also get information on weather (God’s power) and highlights of major sports events.
Along with this, they would usually include one sweet special interest story. This happened to be the only time during the news where I would hear or see the news anchor’s personal opinions or thoughts. As for today however…just WOW! There is massive editorial now in place of the facts that I used to form my own personal thoughts on at one time.
There used to be freedom to choose my direction based on the two sides presented evenly during the reporting. Here, my thoughts mattered and so too did my ability to choose right from wrong based on the truth of facts only. If anything was reported incorrectly, the news would state an apology and issue a retraction. Anyone involved with this false or misleading information was usually blacklisted from all news media.
Quite simply, there is no integrity in news today. There is a direct agenda of trying to persuade those listening to match the agenda of the desired result. Instead of facts presented for the audience to conclude, they are doing all of that themselves ‘for our good’. As just one example, is the Trump Whitehouse really guilty of colluding with Russia? Well, that is not a headline backed by the facts.
This is instead meant to draw out anyone who might have something to back this desired outcome with hidden narrative based on lies. This was not how I was taught. I was taught in college that a story is not a story until all the facts are presented. While there are still shows like 20/20, 60 Minutes and others that at least try to show equal weighting and then follow up, this is becoming rarer by the day
Instead, everything is now meant to deceive us. Why do I have to tune into a right-leaning news channel to hear the horrible threats of bodily harm from democratic leaders to trigger the ‘mobs’ to make it so a republican cannot even enjoy a nice and quiet meal with their family anymore? I then tune into the ‘other channel’ to hear them claim that only the republicans are doing this name calling.
Could you imagine a person threatening or suggesting that the President be beheaded in the past? This would have been labeled treason and instigation and the person charged of terrorist acts against the nation’s leader. Clearly something is horribly wrong as a person did this in our current climate and was praised for their commentary and insight into the ‘real issues’. What? My dreams have been so disturbing lately…
Sub-dream 1 description begins…
The nations were now promoting and advocating the demonic. Waves and waves of armies of the darkness were coming out from crevices. There were so many coming out that they looked like locusts even though they were human. There was so much hate that all things good were now gone.
All of the lights had grown dim. While the sun had become extremely hot, everything else had very little power, like a microwave at 50%. Half of all the neighborhoods were either completely dark or dimly lit at night.
There was lawlessness as the darkness was clearly winning. All things abhorrent were now permissible and acceptable. I saw massive groups of Wiccans assigned to various grids throughout the world. The men were effeminate and their lips were the same color as their skin. It was really creepy.
I also saw horrible sacrifices of innocent things, both humans and animals. It was so horrible that I cannot even talk about it. I felt in my heart that these things were even starting to happen now. I saw groups of teenagers and there were very few that had no piercings or tattoos.
Sub-dream 1 description over…
I recently went through a drive through and noticed that the young man had full on women’s makeup. He was watching people closely to see who would react. When it came to my turn, I made sure that I did not react at all. I didn’t bite.
I then later noticed a very large woman at a different store. She had put bones through her skin and up her arms. I then saw piercings of bones threaded through her neck. For some reason, I became ill and had to leave the store. I just knew this was God having me leave. I knew that I could not make a complaint as I would then be labeled ‘hater’.
Sub-dream 2 description begins…
I saw a mother feeding a baby at a restaurant. Even though the baby wanted ‘baby food’, the mom kept trying to make the baby eat steak. This was impossible as the baby was only six months old and barely had any teeth. The baby kept choking. The baby was crying as he or she clearly wanted milk or pudding instead. I felt powerless as I clearly had no power to stop it in this situation.
Sub-dream 2 description over…
Father, there is no ‘safe place’ for any of us anymore. Please raise up Your people. Please let Your truth prevail. 2 Timothy 3 about wickedness came to mind. Oh dear, dear Jesus, You are our God, our Savior and our Friend. No matter what, I choose to stand for You. I thank You for the life You have given me. I thank You for this difficult race, including my divine detours and delays.
You have not given me a life of comfort. Perhaps this is because You wanted to see if I would mix things up a bit during times of Your silence or uncertainty and build a ‘Golden Calf’ of impatience. Well, Lord, I have come this far. I have given my entire life to You. While my children get disappointed when they think You should do things quicker, they still continue to wait. Lord, they wait.
Oh Father, please have mercy on us soon. Sometimes when we wait, a day might as well be a month. For us to wait a month sometimes feels like 365 days. It is just the way we are, but especially our children, children that are doing their best to wait patiently. Oh Lord, please do not forsake those of us who pursue you, those of us who love You.
I see my doctor for further tests tomorrow. I will then travel to see the neurosurgeon about the tumors in my brain on Thursday. I am also waiting to have a specialty test scheduled for flying out on Sunday, but am still waiting for confirmation. Oh yes…one other item. My husband and I are meeting with my daughter’s teacher at the Christian school they are attending. We are meeting with him to understand his beliefs.
More specifically, this man is teaching the kids at the school that the Old Testament is nothing more than a metaphor and none of it is true. By doing so, he is trying to erase Creation, Enoch and Elijah. No David? No Israelites? How can this be? It cannot be possible. This is the same teacher that had the students do an unusual exercise around two weeks ago or so.
He had all of the children in the school put their heads down and close their eyes. He then asked for a raise of hands of those who would stand for God against opposition and proudly proclaim Jesus as their Savior. Only eight kids out of forty kids raised their hands, of which two kids were our daughters. How can this be? Who will take the Name of Jesus?
Jesus: “Erin, come up.”
I was up in a beautiful meadow and, over me, was the night sky and millions of stars. The moon was also there and looked different than here, so much more beautiful. The stars and constellations were so clear and bright. The stars were in many different colors. I could also see the Milky Way and it was so bright that I could see everything in amazing detail.
On the lawn before me was a beautiful rug. It was thick and the design was incredible. There were large, fluffy pillows in white. I went over and sat down on the rug. I soon decided to lay down, using one of the pillows, and looked up into the sky.
The beautiful pillow was so comfortable that it was as if my head was resting on a cloud. It was designed perfectly by God for me. I was wearing a long white tunic and linen pants. As I continued to lie down and stare up at the beautiful sights of Heaven, tears started to stream down my face onto the pillow.
Me: “Thank You, Lord, thank You. I love You.”
I was so relaxed and comfortable, I soon drifted off to sleep. When I awoke, it was now near the break of dawn. Something had been nudging me to wake up. I opened my eyes and there was my beautiful foal. She was now a bit older than when the Lord had given her to me. She was excited to see me awake and began to jump around and race through the meadow.
I was laughing as I watched her stop to smell some purple Irises. Some beautiful butterflies then appeared and she began to chase them. I then watched the butterflies gather together and begin to chase her. It was then that I noticed that she had riding gear that appeared like a crown. After running away from the group of butterflies, she stopped right in front of a massive fruit tree.
She then stood on her hind legs and tried to reach a fruit. She soon became distracted by a mother bird and her babies in a nest on one of the branches. She then went to the trunk of the tree and rubbed her side against it in the hope that a fruit might fall. I was laughing, but then noticed that I caught myself wishing that I had her youth and energy.
Finally, there was some success and a fruit dropped from the tree. She picked the fruit up and started walking it over to me. She dropped it on the blanket and nudged it towards me, wanting me to take a bite. I took a bite and then gave the rest to her.
Me: “Here you go. The rest is for you.”
The foal then laid her head down next to me. I patted her soft fur as she rested.
Me: “Where is the Lord?”
I then heard His voice behind me.
Jesus: “I am here, Erin. Did you rest well?”
My foal immediately rose up and so did I. I quickly went over to embrace Him.
Me: Crying. “I love You, Lord. I am scared. It is harder now. I am sorry that I have been mad at You. While I am angry down there, everything becomes perfect while I am here with You and my anger disappears.”
Jesus: Laughing. “Hmm, so you are mad at Me? What did I do now?”
Me: “No, Lord, it is what You haven’t done. I am not a very good witness. My husband and I stood next to two people who hate me. I do not understand it. It is so ridiculous as I have never done anything to them, yet this woman has said horrible things about me. Lord, I felt so sick while we were there as well. I do not know for sure, Lord, but I would think this would be a really good time for…”
I began looking around for a piece of paper. I then took this piece of paper and rolled it into a scroll. I then began to tap the ‘scroll’ into my hand while I smiled at Jesus. He soon began to laugh at my antics as I was clearly ‘mocking’, in a joking manner of course, His scroll with my promises from Him.
Jesus: Still laughing. “Oh wonderful. Please read your contract of promises to Me. When are your promises to be fulfilled?”
Me: Sighing. “I am sorry, Lord, but I just thought that a gently reminder might help.”
Jesus: “Hmm, do you think that I forget and I need you to help jog My memory? No, Erin, I can assure you that I am fully aware of the times and season. You must also know that I am fully aware of your state…oh yes…and the state of the nations. There is nothing to wonderful for Me or beyond My reach. As you look for Me in everything, Erin, would I therefore not long to heal you and dry up your tears.
“The enemy has been granted no new permissions from My Father’s Throne, from God in Heaven. Victory has also been granted to you, along with these promises, this contract…” He brought out His scroll of promises for me, His contract. “Now, and as you can see, all is in order as it is written.” He smiled. “Okay, Erin, it is now time to open your scroll with your promises for Me.”
Me: “Lord, I know this is blank…”
He smiled and motioned for me to unroll this anyway. I did. To my absolute surprise, the sheet of paper was no longer blank. I could not help but laugh. I then took a closer look at what ‘my scroll’ had written on it.
“I, Erin, promise to love the Lord, my God, with all my heart, with all my soul and with all my mind…and…I shall love my neighbor as myself.”
Me: Laughing. “I do love You, Lord. You are everything to me. I do not have a Golden Calf made even though it is taking so long to see all of Your promises. This last bridge, my eighth bridge, has been my greatest as it has been my time of closeness to You. It has been a miracle, Lord. You are the greatest gift and my hidden jewel. You, in my life, is more valuable than all the riches in the world. I am thankful, so thankful, for You, Lord!” I reached over and hugged Him.
Jesus: “So, what if I chose not to heal you?”
Me: “In terms of me chasing after You, it would not matter as I would still chase after You. However, I also know that You would not go against Your promises. If this happened, I would still chase after You, but I would start to doubt that I am actually hearing from You as I am not to contradict who You are or Your Word.”
Jesus: “Very good, Erin. I asked you because this was the case that went before God in Heavenly Courts concerning the Bride. The enemy asked to grind you on the threshing floor as wheat. His theory and case before he was cast out was that the Bride, in great pain, would eventually give up and follow him. He was quite certain this would happen with your children and those who call you friend as well.”
Me: “Wow, so sifting wheat as with Peter was not enough. He thought crushing us into wheat flour was best. Hmm, this is horrible.”
Jesus: “Oh Erin, do not worry. The enemy holds all of you in contempt of court. He believes that none of you are worthy as My Bride. He believes that you would all be better off as his bride, understand? My Bride is seemingly being crushed and disheartened. However, do not worry as soon, Erin, very soon, I will call upon you with great clamor and you will all rise up and be healed and strengthened.
“Right now, there is wave after wave of evil pounding the nations. There is also wickedness in churches and many unclean abominations are ministering there. They are teaching that I am the God Who accepts all sin as I am the God Who grants permission to sin. They teach that I am the all-loving God no matter how great their sin. So, where is this written? It is not!
“My Father is sending storms across the land to soften it. I am the Good Farmer, and you, My Bride, work for Me, tending to My fields, crops and harvest. Despite the storms, the people are defiant instead of the people being humbled by God’s judgment.
“Times are even more difficult now as parents without understanding of the Word of God is allowing the church or school to teach their children. As you are discovering, something else other than truth is being taught and these are a false narrative. This is being taught by those who truly believe that they are right. Many are falling away.
“You have been hurt by your old church family as they used false doctrine against you. You left there and did not go back because I did not want you defiled there, understand? While there are still good churches, many pastors sent and appointed by Me to lead as shepherds to My sheep instead have now left the gate open for the wolves to devour them by day and by night.
“A building does not house Me. There is no ark to house God. I am free in you, Erin. I dwell in My tabernacle in each of you, understand? Soon, I will well up in you like springs of living water. The vessels I have created will then pour out to the thirsty with the Gospel, My Word of Truth. You will be hated, but the enemy will be unable to come against you.
“You will be like My ‘secret service’, which will really be more like a loud army in My service. Your joy will crush the wicked and you will quench the thirst of the parched whom I will send you to. You will see storms, but you will observe them only and rescue those whom I call you to.
“Now, I know that you are crushed in spirit. I will care for you, so do not worry. Go to your appointments that I have called you to. There will be more than enough evidence to support your current state.” He smiled. “Do not worry! I am with you.
“Today, the stronghold of the enemy’s test has been lifted and the time constraint given has ended. You will receive a thousand-fold more as My recompense for you is with Me. I love you, Erin.” He smiled and hugged me.
Dream over…
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