Dream 402 – A Covenant Wine of Celebration is finalized
Received on Friday, April 17, 2020
Thank You for another day here! Thank You for all You do. You are wonderful. You are marvelous. You have cared for us in all things. Thank You. I had a dream last night that I did not understand…
Sub-dream 1 “Expensive Fabric” begins…
I had been invited to my friend’s house. When I arrived, there were many people there. While I was looking around, I spotted a two-tiered bench that had been covered in my signature fabric from many of my published projects. This fabric is now discontinued and quite expensive, as much as $500 per yard. This fabric was, in essence, my ‘lucky’ fabric. I waved to my friend to come over.
Me: “Where did you find this fabric?”
Friend: “I can’t really recall where I got this from.”
She then pulled out a bag that I recognized as being a bag I had donated a few years ago. In this bag was a light blue bag from a store that her son had once worked at. Inside the bag were fabric scraps and remnants from old jobs I had worked on. There was a Manual Canovas green velvet fabric there that stood out. At the bottom of the bag were some Lego figurines and small assembled pieces which had once been my sons.
Me: “Where did you find this bag?”
Friend: “I picked it up at a thrift store.”
Me: “I recognize all of this. It used to be mine. These were my sons once.”
Friend: “I have more too. If it is yours, you can have it.”
Me: “No, no, it is rightfully yours now. I am just sorry that you can’t do anything with the scraps. They are just too small.”
Friend: “I have put together a quilt.”
She showed me a beautiful quilt made up of various incredible pieces of fabric.
Me: “Wow, this is so beautiful.”
Friend: “Well, what was once yours is now ours together.” We laughed.
Sub-dream 1 over…
Father, this was an odd dream. Even though the tattered scraps of this fabric were useless to me, I still felt attached to them. I felt attached even though they brought back painful memories of great struggles. The one constant in my life has been my daughter. She has always been with me and I am so grateful. I have also had so many dreams and plans from the very beginnings.
I found a magazine hidden in my cookbooks this morning. This magazine spoke about Lake Pend Oreille in Sandpoint, Idaho, as well as Priest Lake. Pain filled my heart as I remembered exploring different areas of both lakes with my friends. We went boating, fishing and swimming and had so much fun. My mom and I would also go for drives to these places, even on cloudy days. We would also take new routes just for fun.
We had very little back then, so adventure on the cheap was how we lived. For just a moment, I felt the warm sun and smelled the smells of the Tamarac pines. I had no fear, just peace. This was the summer and fall of 1980. By June of 1981, I was gone. I went off to live my own life at eighteen. My mom made it clear that it was time for me to go. While I still visited her occasionally on summer breaks, it was never quite the same.
In reality, age eighteen is too young to go and be by yourself. However, by Your Grace, Father, You took care of me. Thank You, Father, for Your love. Life is different now. The entire dynamic of all things has changed. So much of my past is now ‘buried’. My playbook is to distract myself from the ‘buried objects’ completely and redirect my attention to other more pleasant things.
This is a ‘deflect then indulge’ methodology, a pattern of indulgence and deflection. It is similar to having something terrifying happen and then trying to bury it by eating a huge cake covered in icing. While I would then hope this would make me feel better, it instead just created more ‘dishes’ to clean and a stomach ache. One thing I do know…it certainly did not remove my horrible heart ache. Only God can do this.
Trouble is…I didn’t have God in my life back then. When God did come into my life, I then had to reconcile my past by dredging up so many memories. He then kept me from using my two favorite techniques – either burying or indulging. These were gone. I was now in a mess, a big one. God and His light exposed that which sat in darkness. He exposed my fears, my failures, my ideas and my big, big dreams.
Oh Father, that You would restore my joy. Actually, instead of me, please restore my older son’s joy. He is dealing with severe OCD right now. This is a generational curse that has hit the first-born children from as far back as I can remember. I once had even more severe OCD than his, but You removed this from me. Please do this with him as well. Please release him. I really believe that I have prayed long and hard enough for this miracle to now come to pass for him.
If I took a piece of scrap fabric from every trial and test and sewed it into a quilt, it would have no rhyme nor reason. It would be a ‘crazy quilt’. This quilt would be made up of lost dreams, lost places, lost homes, lost loved ones and lost hopes. In a way, I can also see this happening to my daughter right now. Thanks to the Corona Virus, there will be no prom and no graduation ceremony for her.
While my daughter is taking this in stride and is a good sport about it, this still saddens me. It is unfair, so unfair. Thank You, Father, for loving us. What seems unfair to us is still all part of Your Great Plan. I just know that You will soon make all things right. As for now, I am just in tears. We have all lost so much. For me, I have lost my abilities, my hope and my dreams. While You have kept us and provided for us, I, along with so many on our Nest, feel as if we are being stored on a shelf. Please use us soon! We love You!
Jesus: “Erin, come up.”
I was under the tree with the twelve fruits here in Heaven. I saw Jesus sitting on a rock a short distance away. He stood up and turned to receive me. I ran over to Him and into His arms. I wept there and even as I write.
Jesus: “I know. I am here, Erin. I have always been here. I have seen all things. I know. Erin, I know.
Me: “Oh Lord, I am not asking for vindication. I am not asking for self-elevation or immense wealth. I am not. I just have deep inner longings of things here that I have seen. I only have glimmers of this on Earth. I want my children to know and see these things. I want them to have adventures.
“I want to see our home out west again before things turn. Lord, what I have seen coming…” I stopped as just the thought of this had me crying. “…well, there will be no turning back very soon. Lord, so many of us are looking for our healing, our Transformation. What if we have a lot longer to wait? Oh Lord, what if…”
Jesus placed His finger on my lips. He smiled at me and nodded His head. I suddenly felt such peace. I saw His plan flash in front of my eyes. I had seen this before and it once again told me not to worry, He has this. Sadly, once I saw this, the clarity of the plan was then removed from my memory. Gratefully, it also soon replaced my sadness with a smile.
Jesus: “Oh Erin, you are emotional today. You miss your parents. You want to roll back time. Why? To make changes? To redo your painful experiences? Is this what you want? You cannot make changes as this is My Story…’His Story’. It is finished. It is done. You cannot go backwards. While you can go backwards in your memory, this is full of affliction and where the devil resides. Now, repent, so you can be free.”
Me: Crying. “I am sorry, Lord. I don’t know what happened today. One small thing, opening that magazine, opened a floodgate of tears. I don’t know why I do this to myself. I am so sorry. My daughter and I had been looking through photos and found a disc of pictures that has not been opened in thirteen years. The kids were so happy.
“We were at the pumpkin patch in 2006 at Smith Rock. There were other pictures from 2007. It was a long time ago and such happy memories. These are still bittersweet though as they were also a ‘kickoff to my stupidity’. I trusted the wrong voices and didn’t hear from You clearly. I was in a situation of fear and grief with three young children. I am sorry, so sorry.”
Jesus: Hugging me. “Erin, I was there. I saw what happened. I was your Advocate and Kinsman Redeemer. I was your Constant Companion. However, you did not always hear My Voice. This is because you were looking for My Voice through those you thought had your best interest, those who claimed to be My Voice. They were not though. This then caused great heartbreak for you, even to the point of stopping your heart.
“Well, Erin, you are now here with Me. I have a Great Plan and here you are. While I know that this has not gone according to your plans, it has to Mine. All of your children are there with you. Your enemies thought your union with your husband would never last, not even a year. The walls now echo with the sound of silence in the halls of your enemies. The promise of victory has now faded, all with curses still on their lips. Now, come with Me. I have a place I would like to bring you. We will try this new wine there.”
He took my hand. I soon began to cry as I realized that I was walking with the Lord in a beautiful pine forest. It was fragrant and lovely. It somehow encompassed the best sights and smells of Yosemite, Lake Tahoe, the Red Wood Forests, Crater Lake, the Oregon Coast, Central Oregon, Northern Idaho, Cranston BC, Banff AB, Whitefish MT, Bozeman and the Maine Coast. Hard to describe, but so amazing. We soon walked up to a beautiful lake.
Me: “Lord, this looks like Lost Lake in Oregon. It is beautiful. I have pictures of the boys here from when they were little.”
Jesus: “Well, the lake which was lost is now found here. This is part of your property in Heaven, the property that I have prepared for you.”
Me: “Wait! What? I get a ‘Found Lake’ here in Heaven?”
Jesus: “Well, yes. You can invite whomever you want to come here. I do this for those I love, for those who lost large blocks of time. I give them recompense here. Remember that My recompense is eternal, not temporary, understand? You lost so much and, what little you kept, even that was taken. Here, this is for you. See over there. You have a little cabin on the lake.”
He pointed to a structure on the lake’s shore. In an instant, I could see flashes of all that this ‘little cabin’ had. Well, let me assure you that this was no ‘little cabin’! This was like a property right out of an architectural digest. I jumped up and down in glee.
Jesus: Smiling. “Your mom wants you to know that she visits here often. She loves to set things up for you here. She tries her hardest to guess how you might like it.”
Me: “Well, from what was just flashed in front of me, she is doing a great job. Oh Lord, this lake is so beautiful. Thank You.” I started to laugh as I made a humorous comment. “Hmm, I think I might ‘charge’ You with ‘deflecting’ my thoughts away from painful memories of the past and ‘indulging’ me with something I don’t deserve.” He laughed with me. I then sighed. “I am just overwhelmed by all that You do for us.”
Jesus: Smiling as He gently nudged me. “Well, Erin, you will soon get over it. Yes, and since I am God, I can redirect your attention to the things of Heaven and show you some of My plans for you. Did you think I would forget you? No, Erin, I could not. I could not. Do you think I could forget your children and forget their dreams? No, Erin, I could not. I could not.
“I have been there with them from the beginning. I heard the horrible things said of them. I saw what was done. I have never forgotten. However, you must understand this…just because you did not see My vindication in the visible sense, you can know and understand that there will be vindication. There is a cost for those who harm My children, the little ones, and you have seen this.
“Please understand, Erin, that the cost to those who do evil and have no remorse will be great. Please understand that the cost for those who do evil and justify it as doing work for Me will be great. They have worked for the devil from birth and their heart is not Mine. You see them act higher than you in the churches and the synagogues, but they are not.
“They do not reside here and they do not partake in the fruits of My Good Tree nor will they ever. They know no good fruit. As a result, there is no threat of their wicked schemes and plots here in Heaven. They have instead stored up their treasures in the pews of the wicked.
“In these pews, their ‘treasure’ is that given to an oppressor of hopes and dreams. The wicked enjoy crushing dreams of the innocent and the poor. However, it is I Who crushed the head of the serpent with My foot, understand? Do not let the enemy get a foothold on you as he has already been defeated.”
Me: “Lord, You suddenly seem so serious to me.”
Jesus: “Yes, Erin, as I am letting you hear My Words of Knowledge. I am quite aware of all the comings and goings of the wicked. Their days are short. While there is an uptick in evil, things are to soon change.”
Me: “Lord, thank You for calming my anxious thoughts and turning my tears into ‘Found Lake’…or should I call it ‘Lake once was lost, now it is found’.” I laughed.
Jesus: Laughing. “It is your lake now. Look at what your ‘Found Lake’ is like here compared to what ‘Lost Lake’ is now like there. So, are you hungry?”
Off to the side, a beautiful pier suddenly popped into view. This had not been there before. At the end of the pier was a beautiful pergola area. It had various vines and flowers beautifully climbing the pergola. There was a table there. I was so excited that I ran by myself down the pier to underneath the beautiful pergola. When I realized that I had left Jesus behind, I became remorseful and quickly looked back at Him. He had such a sweet smile on His face that told me not to worry.
The pergola had a beautiful bench built into it. The comfortable cushions were made out of my ‘lucky, but expensive, fabric’, but even better here. It was the glorified version of it and was like linen and velvet combined. I had tears of joy. The table was set for two. There was freshly baked bread and a bottle of wine wrapped in a cloth. Jesus was now standing with me and laughing.
Jesus: “I see that you are taking all of this in!”
Me: Crying with joy. “Oh Lord, You think of everything, just everything. No detail is left out…none. The water of the lake is crystal clear. It looks similar to glaciated blue fresh water, but even clearer. This is not like the dark water of Lost Lake. I can see the bottom and this too is beautiful.”
Jesus: Smiling. “I am glad you like it. There is a lot to do here, Erin. You will have an eternity of fun here.”
Me: “Do my friends also have lakes here?”
Jesus: “Well, some will. However, there are things I have done which are unique to each of their tastes. You will have invitations to their parties and you will then see what are special to them that I have prepared. There are so many things to do here. All of your memories of pain will be removed and replaced with good things.”
Me: “I am so happy here. I love all of this. It is truly amazing.”
Jesus: “I am not the god of missed opportunities and broken dreams, understand? I Am the God of Opportunities, Hopes Fulfilled, Blessings and Good Things. Now, have some of this fresh bread. You will love this.” He broke the bread and prepared it with something like butter and a sprinkle of salt. He placed it on a small tray for me. “This is the Special Reserve Wine. I will give you a sample. As this is from the first batch, it is sweet.”
I took a bit of bread and was instantly in awe. There was not even a hint of the flavor of yeast in this bread. It was amazing. It was unlike any bread I had ever tasted.
Me: “Thank You. Lord, this is wonderful.”
Jesus: “Let us partake in the wine of the vineyards of Heaven.”
Me: “Lord, can I make a request?”
Jesus: I knew He already knew what it was. “Yes.”
Me: “Can this Reserve Wine be the best of the batches? Can this Reserve Wine represent all of us who You have called on Earth as they also are in Heaven?”
Jesus: Smiling. “You do not understand what you ask.”
Me: “While maybe not fully, I just know that everything here is good. Please make Heaven visible in Your people. Please let this be like a covenant.”
Jesus: I knew He already knew that I would ask this. “Hmm.” He nodded. “Okay, so, Heaven in you would be visible. Hmm.”
He was pretending that it was taking a while for Him to understand what I was asking for. I couldn’t help but laugh at His perfect acting. Well, everything He does is perfect.
Me: “Yes. Make it like You prayed in the Lord’s Prayer. I am not worried about stepping out of line as we will follow what You tell us to do. If we are to display mighty deeds like Jacob’s sons and You are with us, then You will naturally keep us in line. In turn, we can be like a beacon of the hope of Heaven amongst the living. However, not just the living, but also for the dying…that they might know You and be healed.”
Jesus: Nodding. “Hmm. Okay. I see. Okay.”
Me: “What? Really? Really! Okay, let’s drink!”
Jesus: Laughing. “Okay, take a sip.”
I took a sip. It was the most amazing wine I had ever tasted from God’s vineyards. I cannot even describe it. While I am not a wine connoisseur, I somehow knew that this topped any wine on Earth.
Me: “Wow, this is a Celebration Wine!”
Jesus: “Well, it is now also a Covenant Wine.”
Me: “I love You…so much.”
Jesus: Smiling. “I love you too!”
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