Dream 733 – Continue on your course
Received on Sunday, October 1, 2023
Communion
Dear Father,
Thank You for another day! Thank You for all You do. I love You. You have enriched my life and changed me. What was once important is now secondary to a life surrendered to You. I look around at our home You built for us. While it is still the same foundation, the same walls and the same rooms, time has adjusted its appearance.
We have cracks on our concrete floor. The woodwork and various surfaces show the wear of a home lived in daily by a large family. While the structure remains strong, there are battle scars and stories that come with them. Our children have grown up with us and are now young adults. Their rooms evolved through the years. It just seems like yesterday when simple trends and passing fads took up residency on their shelves.
We grow older every day. We change. However, You never change. I am so thankful for this. As for my older son, he has now packed up all of his belongings. All of his shelves are clear and empty. All of his memories are stored away and labeled. I know some will tell me that I am just experiencing empty nesting. Perhaps, but, with my sons’ autism, I am their mediator, their instruction manual and their advocate.
However, and more importantly than any of these things, You, Father, are their Savior. The world isn’t kind to people with special needs anymore. The world has changed in the last few years. Father, You know that I need to be near where they are so I can help. I am worried about my older son not having me around.
I pray that I have given all of our children the proper tools in this life. I pray that You are pleased that I taught them to worship You in all things. Our children have experienced great signs, wonders and miracles. Still, Your promises have not yet arrived. For those who are young in age, this long wait is too much. This comes on the heels of the three years of delay, in a worldly sense, caused by Covid-19.
In the last year and at various times, we have watched depression and anxiety come and go on every one of our children. We watched their friends pass away in various situations and even a few suicides. Many of their friends married and began new lives. As for where we live, it is remote and not an easy place to be a young adult.
My husband and I encouraged our children to work and save as we didn’t have money to supplement their schooling. However, we were able to provide room, board and basic transportation. While my daughter went away for a year out west, she returned when she discovered things were not so great out there alone. She missed family and her local friends.
As for my stepson, he also went out west. He went there to work after finishing forestry school. While there, he encountered harsh conditions in the place he was contracted. While he was out in the field at work one day, his rental home was broken into. All of the valuables were stolen from each of his forestry roommates. They took all of their technology, money, passports and other items. There were many drug addicts in a camp nearby their rental home.
After his contract was up, he came back home to work from here until one day he receives a better offer in a safer place. He might now join my stepdaughter for a season to help her set up at a school. She is moving there because of a boy she plans to marry. While we are supporting her decision, she shocked her closest house friend, my younger son.
They did so much together, such as building projects and playing video games, we asked that she break the news of her plans slowly and with care. Instead of going slowly as we had requested, she did the opposite. While our home is now experiencing less drama due to her absence, my younger son is acting like a death has occurred. We are all trying to help him understand the changes.
My younger son is now physically ill at times. He is not eating or sleeping normally. However, within the last 24 hours, we have begun to see hope in him coming to grips with her departure. My stepdaughter, the youngest of our children, is staying with another family friend until she leaves. There were hurtful words spoken. These words were like spilled water from a cup. These words, like spilled water, can’t be reversed.
Oh Father, we need some miracles. Even my daughter is experiencing troubles. A young man in the ministry that she was interested in recently told her that he was ‘not uninterested, just busy’. To me, this seems like a nice way for him to say ‘no’ to her. She has been so sad as more of her friends are now engaged to be married. We now pray that You soon send her the perfect one.
As for all of this, I simply have no answers, just hope in You. Our home is beginning to shrink. We still have no ability to move to Bend, OR. We really have no ability to do much of anything right now. Even so, You have always been faithful and You have never stopped blessing us. Please forgive my sadness here as I do not want to take away from the fact that everything surrounding us is what You have created.
I place my trust in You. We will drive my older son to Boston this coming week. He might never come back. Father, please be with him always. He has rededicated his life back to you. He told me yesterday that life without You is not worth living. Thank You for the gift of my children. Please be my son’s advocate, mediator, comforter and friend. I know You will do all of these things as You created him.
As for the rest of our house, please grant us strength as we navigate its ‘shrinking state’. Please fill our home with laughter again. Please strengthen those left behind to cope with our vacancies. Thank You for all You do for each one of us here. We know that we could not walk safely in this world without You.
While fall is here, it has been an unusual one so far. This last week has been sunny and cool. There has also been an overcast canopy overhead. It begins with dense fog and dew in the morning. The fog then leads to this filtered sun-filled sky. As for the leaves, they are not changing normally. The leaves are spotty and almost look like they have blight.
While most trees have remained green, only a few have had their leaves dry up. While the changing of the colors began in August, it seems to have been suspended. Very few trees have turned to their fall colors so far. Oh Lord, You seem to be working on something. Please watch over us. Please take us to where You would have us. Please strengthen us. We love You, Father!
Jesus: “Erin, come up!”
He once again spoke to me while I sat in my devotional chair. His Voice was very clear.
Jesus: “Erin, I am here and I am with you. I do not leave My people to wander in darkness alone without Me. I am with you day in and day out. Your children are Mine and I am with them also. I am your shelter. I am your cover from rain and storms. I am your place of refuge. I am also your shade and tent of cooling in the noonday sun.
“While you have been struggling with all that surrounds you, did I not tell you that I would change hearts and lead you to the place I have prepared for you? All you do is as I have called you. You are now overwhelmed at the tasks that are before you. You consider interest rates and prices. You consider packing and moving. You wonder about all of the work and the overwhelming projects before you.
“These are too much for you. If I was not with you, not one thing you worry over could be overcome. All of this would be impossible. Now, I want you to understand this… I could have all your debts, all your various tasks and all your worries about your move and the home I built for you… all removed in a single day.
“Yes, I know what you are thinking… but, no, this will not be by your death. Erin, you worrying about all of these things does you no good. You have been instructed to thin out, pack away, give away and ready your home for what I am doing next. You are now wondering why I would have you do all of this now.”
Me: “Yes, I am. All of this is so nerve-wracking.”
Jesus: “I have a purpose. Can you trust Me a bit longer concerning all of this?”
Me: “I am sorry, Lord. I am getting older rapidly. Our arrows in the quiver of Your care are becoming scarce. The thought of all I need to do is too much for me. It is easier to stay put. Without You performing a miracle, I can’t even imagine this. Please don’t let my life stop here. Lord, You promised to take me out of the wilderness to wide open spaces someday.
“Lord, I want my family and me to be healed and changed. I want my Nest friends to be healed and changed. We have now gone from our beautiful gift of a trip into a very difficult situation here after the storm. I am sorry for my tears. Oh Lord, I am so sorry for being so sad.”
Jesus: “Do not worry. Now, is there something else?”
Me: “Yes. Both my husband and I have had nightmares of invading armies across the USA. Millions have invaded the USA. It only takes a…”
Jesus: “A Savior, right? Were you about to say Savior?”
Me: “Yes, of course.”
Jesus: “I am God over all things. The Word is My promise. You read My promises daily. There is much to be afraid of here… wild beasts, savage men and foreigners who hate you because of Me.”
Me: “Lord, in my dream of ‘Seven More Years’, is this tribulation or the numbers of my years left here?”
Jesus: “This remains a mystery… for now. Even so, if you look at all the signs and wonders around you, you know you are in due season. It is a rare thing in your day for a storm to come suddenly and without warning. So, it is now in the world that you see the evidence of what I warned you as one day it will come to be and now has come to pass.”
Me: “There is such an increase in hate. Lord, I don’t want to leave safe for unsafe!”
Jesus: “Erin, hearts have waxed cold. Many hate because the seed of bitterness has opened the door to demons and with them all evil is manifest. Truth is now considered to be lies and lies are now considered to be truth.”
Me: “Hmm, it seems easier for us to just stay put.”
Jesus: “On the surface, yes. However, there is so much you cannot see where you are. I see. You see only as things are now and guess about the future. I have given you all you need. I am preparing you for the promises I have given you. Allow Me to work. Do as I have instructed you and all will go well.
“Now, you worried like this 11 years ago too (when these dreams first started)! You also worried about moving from the desert to the place where you are in the trees, more than the dreams even. Both were impossible if not for Me. Now, this time for you is no different. Allow me to carry you and your children. I have you. Rejoice, Erin. I love you. Do not worry!”
Dream over…
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