Dream 916 – “I Protect What Is Mine”
** Please note that from dream 912 to dream 926, the links had been changed for a period of time for privacy reasons due to life-upending personal events that are revealed in the following messages. Please know that what is shared here only scratches the surface of what truly transpired. Now that we are settled in a new season of life, we are ready to share these details with you. We appreciate your patience and understanding. Blessings, the SC9 team.
Received on Sunday, August 17, 2025
Communion
Dear Father,
Thank You for allowing me another day! Thank You for all You’ve done from the beginning! Thank You for the comfort of friends and family. Thank You for the outpouring of grace and love from people I barely even know.
Please bring me a measure of peace, Father. I’m troubled in my spirit and my grief comes in waves.
Grant me strength to continue down this dark hallway of doors and please open these easily with no resistance!
Today I must write Jeff’s obituary. How he would want to be remembered by all he came into contact with. He made people laugh and he was quite dynamic. Please help me.
This week has been devastating. There were so many events leading up to the moment of Jeff’s passing that I barely recall everything.
All I know is I had an event – a medical event, I couldn’t possibly have an event like this, it was a major sign. I woke up in the middle of the night to a vasovagal syncope with a bradycardia response – impossible with my pacemaker. It occurred around 4:20 A.M. on Monday, August 11th. I know if I had succumbed to the event as I had been standing at the time – no one would know I had fallen, so I prayed. I heard Your voice say, “Lay down, Erin and rest.” So I did, and the event passed me by.
It was exactly like my heart event in 2008 and it was scary. My right side hurt so badly prior to this and then the pain disappeared.
I won’t go into every detail about all the events leading up to Jeff’s passing as I feel right now I am personally unable. I am still discovering things as You, Father, unfold them. It is painful.
It will be very difficult for so many sparrows to hear as the Jeff they all knew and loved was different from the Jeff we had lived with here. Sometimes in life – in our own journey as Christians despite how good the fight, our faith, our fasting, our prayers, our intercessions, all of it – even the miracles sent from You daily, Father, which would bring any man to his knees, despite all the signs, wonders, the miracles, a man still has a choice to whom he will serve each day.
Because of a series of bad choices kept completely private from our family, at his workplace seven years ago – in a matter of only a few days he had lost his entire career, his profession he had worked so hard at was gone in a moment. The events were so painful when they were uncovered – we as a family came together in prayers. Several businesses had to be locked down because of the threats made that I had no idea until an officer arrived at our home to bring Jeff in for an evaluation.
He was in the hospital for 3 weeks and during that time the things he said to me, I just can’t forget – they were engrained in me. Horrible things. I could never do anything to change them personally. I had to deal with weeks, months, and years of fallout because of those days. These events as they unfolded forever changed our lives.
All the kids helped me. All of us were traumatized. The shame which fell on our home was humiliating. At the same time and same hospital, I went in for a CT scan and my brain tumor was discovered – so I was grappling with a husband I did not know to a potentially life ending illness in my brain.
After all of this, I was ready to go Home. I asked You, Father, if I had done a good job here because clearly I didn’t. You held me and gave me the supernatural ability to forgive and deal with all the aftermath. All the fallout.
His career ended. $200,000 a year gone in a moment.
In 7 years, he barely received nibbles from hundreds of resumes sent. The corporate head hunters had stopped pursuing Jeff shortly after the events years ago. So, we as a family prayed to God and watched You, Father, sustain us! My disability funds were finally released and it was just enough to cover us all these years. A miracle of epic proportion.
He was diagnosed with late onset bi-polar disorder, triggered by lack of sleep, food, and a stressful workplace. He had been passed over as a partner of his firm, which he had worked so hard for. The company needed more women in management to meet corporate quotas – someone so junior had been risen up over Jeff and others – it was truly heartbreaking and unfair but Jeff didn’t take the proper approach and it was bad.
Over the last 7 years the flare-ups had been minimal and I thought I could get Jeff modern treatments in the U.S. that could help – but deep down, I knew this was a spiritual warfare issue.
When You, Father, put an abrupt halt to our move last summer (2024) to Oregon – things began to manifest again. My kidney cancer surgery was expedited after some divine delays and Zoey had taken a turn for the worse. We began to see Jeff descend again. We had his medicine adjusted and we prayed, I battled. While I was up nights with Zoey, I would pray in the Spirit.
Things seemed to normalize – then they didn’t.
Financially we were struggling and we were unable to repair things which needed repairs. God, You are so good, You gave us a blessing from my mom’s estate – it was enough to repair our stairs and we couldn’t build our garage to sell our home for the maximum amount but we decided to use it to build a bridge like the one in my dreams for us to cross over our creek into the woods. We also purchased some gravel as Jeff wanted to build some paths by clearing out the weeds and overgrowth. He was fixed on it, so I thought it might be fun to see him so excited.
Something happened in the midst of all this, and we lost Jeff. He finished the upper pathways and he spent 12 or more hours a day in the woods. He changed. He would wake up early, eat nothing, and continue his work. He began projects in the lower part of our property we had no money for and became angry with any opposition. Then he would disappear.
With the Nest and my dreams, the typing had to be monitored carefully, as things God had said were being changed to support Jeff’s dates, events, and other things. Jeff had given himself over – we tried everything.
He had removed me off the Nest over a year ago, and kept making it so I had no access. He wouldn’t update our site because he didn’t want me to say anything. He would change things back as the Lord would not allow this, but it was a battle most didn’t know was happening.
He then began to plan things – plot evil against all of us. Even planning to take our lives. He told us he would, while we slept. We then lived in fear. In July, You, Father, stepped in to save us.
More will come at some point, but it unfolded like a movie thriller here with horrible events. This time, instead of his workplace, it was us. I had placed an AirTag in his car to keep tabs on his whereabouts as he had broken the Judge’s no contact order. In the meantime, we had only about 10 days to move out of our home because Jeff’s name was on everything, and he had left me off of it, so we had to vacate in order for the home to be sold.
We were in great fear here as the police had been watching over our home and we had to alert our neighbors because of the police presence.
Jeff had rented a hotel room about 15 miles away and the AirTag showed he had been busy. His son had been communicating with him and Jeff seemed remorseful and ready to move on. He listed our home on the market with an agent, visited friends, made appointments planned for this last week with several people.
Then we saw his activities on Sunday morning and early afternoon, August 10th – then the car didn’t move. His communications went dark. I phoned his son, he texted Jeff –but no response. I contacted the police, but they were delayed as a wellness check is a non-emergency call.
Then Monday evening, I received a call that the units were finally enroute to the hotel. The officers asked questions, I answered and gave them information as they were confirming with their records. Then I heard nothing and we went to sleep here.
Then at 1:30 A.M. Tuesday morning, our doorbell rang and the dogs were barking. My thought was that Jeff had been spotted out here near our home. When I opened the door – the officer said, “Erin, I’m sorry to inform you – your husband has passed away.”
Jeff had taken his life in a horrific way. He left no note.
The police had to send teams to investigate for possible homicide, but they were still completing their investigation, and I received the call from the coroner on Friday with all the details.
We were told we could pick up his personal effects at the hotel room on Tuesday morning. We thought he had died from a medical event from his medication.
My daughter, my youngest son, and I went together to room #50. The door had been broken by the police so it was ajar. There are no words. No words – our Jeff was gone. We gathered his clothing. His wallet, phone and other items were with the police. My youngest son went to check the bathroom. When he saw it, he said, “Oh God… Jeff didn’t die how we thought. Whatever you do, don’t look in there… It’s bad…Let’s go!”
So we quickly left – all of us in tears. I was so upset that no one told us how bad it was, so we could’ve sent someone else to go in. I called the coroner on the way to the police station and she said sorry, but call Service Master. I did, and their trauma cleaning specialists went right in and repaired and cleaned everything.
Jeff’s kids flew into town and we all met on Wednesday to make arrangements. His ex-wife and her new husband showed up and I was so uncomfortable knowing Jeff would not be happy. I had spent the last few hours letting family know and talking with his mom who was stricken with grief. I let her know I would take care of things and have Jeff’s remains sent to her in Winnipeg. She was grateful.
I’ve had so much to do in such a short period of time – I’m sick. All the kids are here except my oldest son, as his passport is expired. I am not having a service here because I’m not sure many would come and it would break my heart.
Father, I’m not doing well. I really need You right now! In hindsight, You told me in advance what was coming, although shocking, it was what is best for now. You also comforted us that You met him at the end and carried him Home!
Thank You, Father!
I’ve had quite a few dreams lately. The one from this morning stood out the most.
Sub-dream 1 “Landing The Most Prestigious Client” begins…
I was younger and a new Interior Designer to a larger firm. I had gone to a small coffee cart in our lobby and struck up a great conversation with a woman. We laughed and spoke for about 15 minutes. She asked what I did, I told her I had just started with this firm. She received a phone call from her husband. We said goodbye and exchanged smiles and nods as I waved to go back upstairs.
I had been working in the sample room when the owner of the company came in to greet me.
Owner: “Well, you just bent the ear of our largest, most prestigious client and her husband.”
He seemed upset.
Me: “What? Excuse me?”
Owner: “She wants to work with you exclusively on their next project. That will be a hefty salary increase and bonuses. Congratulations. I don’t know what you said, but clearly the gods are smiling down on you.”
Me: “Wow, God is smiling down!”
Owner: “Well, that’s nice for you. Don’t discuss any of that in the workplace.”
He was upset.
I was in shock – just a 15-minute conversation changed everything.
Sub-dream 1 over…
I woke up and said, “Going back to work? That will take a miracle healing.”
I got up and again grief struck me and I had a difficult time breathing.
I went downstairs and decided to feed the birds as usual. I looked out the kitchen window and there was a scruffy juvenile red cardinal in the tray. It ate some seeds, then saw me and flew off. I went outside and put the seed out. I decided to walk the path and I paused – so surprised to see fall leaves on the ground everywhere. It has been very cool at night and the green is turning to yellow – but this area was specifically the only area with golden leaves. I walked the path and looked with a new set of eyes over all of Jeff’s work. It is beautiful!
I walked the loop and was about to go in when I heard You, Father, say, “Walk the path of his descent before you go in to meet Me.” I had not gone down there in a few weeks. It was dark there and long. The path was cleared, but only a portion had gravel. It was so sad. I cried – it was tough.
I turned around so I could climb up the hill by the area where the garage was, which we had renovated into a bonus room and office for him, and I continued to cry.
Me: “I did all I could. Father, I did all I could. Did I do enough?”
Jesus: “Come up to see Me.”
I went up to write in my journal.
Jesus: “I am here, Erin, I’m with you. I am sorry for your pain right now, but I promise you, this was the best way for you. His plans were lofty and no good thing was coming. I know this is difficult to understand because you had hoped for a miraculous healing and great changes. You were stuck in an enemy stronghold by what had bound Jeff. It was making you weak and sick and your memory foggy. Now you will be of sound mind and eventually be in peace.
“I protect what is mine. You are mine. Your children are mine. Just as you can be a vessel to pour out good things, the enemy also uses empty vessels to pour out evil. This is a lesson in good over evil. At the end of Jeff’s journey here, I met him. I carried him home. He reconciled with me and his heart is Mine. He had lost his way and had carved out his own path, but I found him there.”
Me: “Why, Lord?”
Jesus: “Why does anyone go another way? It is because in this instance, one of his best dates had come and gone. All the numbers and dates added up, but it was not to be. He became angry and hopeless. Instead of coming to Me, he gave up. He surveyed all he had lost. He had been so date oriented, instead of blind faith to believe in My Plans for him – he decided he couldn’t finish strong.
“He was not of sound mind. He was like a boat with no mast or rudder on a storm tossed sea. He was tormented.”
Me: “Lord, he wrote down a bunch of dates…are these…?”
Jesus: “Erin, he took his own life when his final date came and left, but really I carried him Home. One day you will know more, but for now, trust Me that this was the better way for now.”
Me: “Better? You’re God, Lord, You could’ve just healed him – You could’ve.
Jesus: “Of course, and he is healed, just his time on Earth, his work was complete. One day you will see him changed and he will have much work to do. For now though, I watch over those I have called. Your time has not come here and the enemy works hard trying to end your life, but I am the Authority over life and death, and they have no power.”
Me: “Lord, he had been looking at Tu B’AV, August 10th, the coroner believes he died August 10th or early the 11th. ” (His time of death was called on August 12th at the scene by the Coroner)
Jesus: “It doesn’t matter, Erin – he is free from his affliction. I have him. He sees what has happened to all of you. He knows.”
Me: “I’m sorry, Lord. I didn’t do enough. Maybe I could’ve done better.”
Jesus: “Stop! If this were true, I would’ve told you and My Spirit (the Holy Spirit and Counsellor) would’ve instructed you in the way you should go. You were tired and I could not let you be treated like this. I am with you and what was done to you is also done to Me. Your daughter will be the reminder of truth from these events and will console you in your grief.
“The enemy would like to heap guilt upon you and accuse and convict you. But I will not allow this. You had no power, Erin. You did not take Jeff’s life, Jeff attempted to take his life – but I was there to carry him Home. Take comfort in this. Last evening as you drove home, I sent a sign to you.”
Me: “Yes, a beautiful young buck was in the middle of the road. It stopped, turned to look at me, the sun was peeking through the trees – then it ran off into a beautiful green grass field. Just as I took out my camera, it stopped, turned back to look at me, and then flew down into the trees. It was alone.”
Jesus: “Focus on these things, little by little signs will come and let you know I am here with you. Now, you have a great task ahead. I promise to be with you in all of this as I open doors. I will direct you. All of your children will unite to help you finish packing. You will keep in touch, but soon won’t be back this way awhile. I promise to send help and buyers for your home.”
Me: “Jeff was a Pension Actuary and yet he didn’t believe in pensions or insurance. He needed me for his retirement. He spent his time on dates and not the ‘what if?’”
Jesus: “This is why I tell you to live each day well. Remember, because the day or the hour no one knows, not even angels in Heaven, nor Myself, but only My Father. Take comfort in this! Signs come and go, but events remain, and then all will be as it is in Heaven. It is okay to watch, but you must live!
“Don’t withhold from your daily tasks or stop doing this or that, but instead, remember – God is within her, she will not fall, God will help her at the break of day! I promise you good things, Erin. I will make a way for you. Don’t be afraid! I have you! I love you!”
Dream over…
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