Dream 935 – The Key to Heaven
Received on Friday, January 16, 2026
Communion
Dear Father,
Thank You for another day here! Thank You for my salvation! I am grateful to You in all things. I love You, Father!
I had a dream I couldn’t shake and I don’t fully understand.
Sub-dream 1 “The Mountain Hike” begins…
I was walking with my children on a path from our car to the entrance of a forestry park. There was a wooden gate and a forestry board with a map of trails. Each trail gave an estimated time to hike it as well as the mileage.
There was a very long hike with an estimated timespan of 8 hours, there was a very short one which was still expected to take at least 2 hours and then there was a 4-hour hike which encircled the mountain, and if you changed your mind on the 4-hour course you could decide to continue onto the remaining balance of the 8-hour course which would lead you to the summit. The 2-hour path went to the base of the mountain and back; an hour there and an hour back.
There was some back and forth between us deciding which path to take, but we compromised on the 4-hour hike. It was early in the morning and dawn was breaking. Other vehicles were pulling up as we stood at the entrance of the park trails.
As we stared at the map, a white spider dropped down onto it. We all marvelled at the sight. I had never seen a pure white spider like this.
Daughter: “Mom, yuck. Kill it.”
Me: “I could kill it, but it doesn’t feel right in this case. We are visiting here and this seems like a major sign of some sort.”
They all agreed and we proceeded to hike the 4-hour trail.
Sub-dream 1 over…
Father, I felt I was doing some sort of written math problem, but I’m not sure about the white spider. Life must already be difficult for a white spider that’s easy to spot. Usually when I have dreams about spiders, these are warnings of spiritual warfare–but this seemed different.
Please, Father, continue to work with me so that I am able to help others. I know about the speaking of absolutes in my life and You have instructed me that any time we use an absolute in speech that we are making a declaration–essentially giving the enemy permission to test us on that issue we declare with our lips. For instance, “never declare you are humble in spirit!”–this is a declaration that is actually prideful. People who are humble never tell you they are humble. In fact, they would prefer not to hear such a thing.
If you say, “I would never steal”, well, you will be tested on this, I promise. It will be in subtle ways, but I’ve failed on this even without realizing I was stealing. Then I turn back and make things right so as to not have an open door for the enemy to continue his temptation gymnastics with me.
R2B2–“Repent, renounce, break, and bless”. Be contrite in heart and seek God for forgiveness in all matters of sin so when you lay your head down on your pillow at night, you sleep soundly. Don’t hold a grudge and go to bed angry.
Reference Ephesians 4!
Father, when You taught me about the spiritual warfare surrounding the use of verbal declarations and absolutes, and how immediately the devil has permission to test us, You showed me Jesus as my Attorney and the devil as the accuser and prosecutor–ready to convict me. When the devil presents the evidence of what I just spoke to God–our Judge, there is no argument. So, instead Jesus stands for me and argues with perimeters on the magnitude of testing allowed by the devil against me.
In Job, perimeters of testing by the enemy was given by God when God said, “have you considered My servant, Job?” (Job 1)
What happened next is sad. Job was blameless according to God’s word. Yet, the enemy was still allowed the testing. So, if we are sinners who make idle declarations and absolutes and wonder why we are often in the middle of spiritual warfare and attacks, this is probably the culprit–our own mouths!
It’s been a bad last year for me. The enemy has done his level best to make certain I can’t continue to write what the Lord–You, Father, have given to me to share about the heart of the Father who loves us.
These dreams over the last 12 years have been such a wonderful mystery and blessing. These have remained well-hidden. When searching, these are not easy to find. But my dreams You have given to me as a gift.
Instead, little by little and day by day, You have sent those You have selected to come to the Nest at Your altar. To wait on our King. I feel blessed, Father. Your promises are true and I wait for the fulfillment as long as I am able before You call me to something else.
My heart right now is broken. I went to see my new general physician here and I have so many needs physically it will likely be a full-time job. The first order of business is to address my cancer–this involves two specialists. The next is an audiologist as my hearing is going. Then, my brain tumor, and finally, my heart. Tests have been ordered and I’m overwhelmed. I must forge ahead. So far my blood work is normal, so this is good.
I’m restless, personally.
Father, You have brought me back to the place of my heart here. A place which I barely recognize now. The people are cold here. They used to be nice and courteous, but I believe that aggression, anger, greed, and all the negative of the fruits of the Spirit are on full display. It’s very selfish–all about self-care.
So, as I was exhausted from dealing with selfish people, You reminded me, Father, that I must forgive or grow cold in unforgiveness.
I have been seeing my old christian counsellor from 17 years ago. She has led me to a book, “The Freedom Factor–Finding Peace Forgiving Others and Yourself”. It’s a hard thing to admit. I am usually quick to forgive others because of the Matthew 18 parable that Jesus gave to Peter. But, I must say, I struggle to forgive myself for the events in my life.
Miracles can’t happen, healing can’t happen, and a move of God can’t happen until I face the fact that I somehow put myself on trial and I’m my own accuser. I’m working through the book slowly and reflecting on what God is doing here. I remember back to what I wrote and was published in my yearbook in high school under my photo when I was 17 years-old going on 18. Mind you, I was not a christian back then.
“To one day have a heart of gold, but for now it sits on a chain around my neck until the day I can love everyone and everything, including myself”. Well, it should’ve said this instead, “To one day have a heart of gold pleasing to my Father in Heaven, but for now it sits on a chain around my neck until the day I can forgive all those who wronged me and hurt me, but most importantly to forgive myself.”
See, I had the first part right–to forgive others–they truly don’t know what they do or how they appear to those around them. Since God has forgiven me of my wrongs, then who am I to hold my brother or sister in contempt for their wrongs against me? I have worked hard to keep this at the forefront of my own set of values.
But this is difficult–the most difficult–I can’t seem to forgive myself. I hold myself in chains of unforgiveness. I have blocked my own freedom. Every time something horrible happens to me or my family I blame myself for it. I’ve never forgiven myself for my own failures. I have kept myself in prison. How can I expect You, Father, to work miracles in my own life if I can’t forgive myself?
I’m so sorry, Father. Please forgive me for holding myself in contempt before Your throne. I’ve shackled myself. Please deliver me from this furnace of affliction in which I’ve thrown myself into.
Jesus: “I am here, Erin. I am with you. I’ve never left you and I never will. I can speak an absolute here as the enemy cannot come against me in God’s court. When I brought you back to the place of your heart, what did you think I meant?”
Me: “The place of my heart being broken?”
Jesus: “Well, yes, in a way. But instead it is the place you began to accuse yourself, and you can’t be My Bride in peace if you continue to call yourself names. When you do this, you are publicly proclaiming that I have made a bad choice, and I haven’t! I am the Creator of good choices, so accept this about yourself.
“You are like a bride in her chamber who sees herself in the mirror and accuses herself, bringing up all her mistakes and then says–how can God want me? Will my groom find me acceptable? Then you point out all your physical disqualifiers as if God made an even worse choice. So stop this!”
I sat for a moment and wept.
My battles have scarred me. I have unforgiveness against myself. I am harsh and critical. I thought I was keeping myself from being prideful by using self-checks, trying to remain in humility. But I realize instead it was a form of self-loathing and affliction.
Me: “I’m sorry, Lord. I’m guilty of unforgiveness. I struggle to forgive myself. Help me.”
Jesus: “I have waited for this day, Erin. This is the key to unlock the Kingdom of Heaven. So many need to be ready for what comes soon. You have an enemy–many enemies…an army truthfully. This enemy studies you and knows that unforgiveness divides. It divides children against their parents and parents against their children. It divides races, communities, churches and marriages.
“If I have forgiven you of all your sins and even gave My life in exchange for yours so you would be set free and be with Me in eternity–but still hold debts of unforgiveness against others and even yourself, then what does My own Word say?”
Me: “If we cannot forgive others or ourselves, then You are not able to forgive us. It says in Matthew 18:34-35 by Your own Words You will hand us over to the jailers and essentially lock us up until we are able to pay our debts–forgive our brothers debts against us.”
Jesus: “Those who like to believe God will just forgive and forget the rest of this parable have not truly believed what I have written in My own Word.”
Me: “A lot of people need to know this! I kind of know it–just forgot this, Lord.”
Jesus: “When you speak things about yourself in the mirror–you speak these about My Bride and best friend here. Stop it. Then you will say, but Lord, how can I forgive someone who hurt my children or even my dog? What if their lives were taken by tragedy or by another? Well, I tell you this, any unforgiveness means you do not trust God to administer justice, so you lock them up in the prison of unforgiveness in your heart. When was it written that you are to forget the wrongs done to you? This is not in My Word to forgive and forget. That is impossible for man, understand?
“So Erin, this is a good day. The prison cell you have kept yourself locked up in has been opened. From this day forward, you are free. I have set you free, now throw away that prison cell key.
“There is a great divide across the nations–the enemy and his army have weaponized and punished the peoples of the Earth using accusations and various types of evil against the children of God and man. There are persecutions of every kind and accusers saying, ‘Where is your god?’ Well, I see.
“This year is a year of changes, not just physically but also land masses, wealth and leadership. Some corrupt kingdoms will fall. There is also a shift in My Bride, those who are and those who say they are. Understand? Not all are chosen. Those waiting should let their words be few and wait for wisdom. Far too many believe they have time, so they gather others and go away from the wedding chamber in search of more in town–while those true to the Groom would never consider leaving in fear of missing the shout, the trumpets and the party approaching. Understand?”
Me: “Am I ready, Lord?”
Jesus: “Why are you asking Me? Did you leave and go searching elsewhere in arrogance or give yourself to another?”
Me: “No, Lord.”
Jesus: “Then you wait in wisdom for your Bridegroom to come. But note this and remember carefully, when you speak to others about yourself or look in the mirror and say harsh words against yourself–My Bride–then you might as well go into town and leave with the others–understand?
“Revival and miracles, signs and wonders will not come into fullness without the key of forgiveness. When I died, I had the key to release those from Hades and I did, into everlasting life. Now, I also have set the captives free and My death was the key as the scapegoat, I sacrificed My blood for the atonement of sins. But now I have given you, My Bride, the key to unlock Heaven upon Earth, and unforgiveness is all that is in the way!
“The key to miracles here is forgiveness! I have forgiven you, now unlock the prison cells of your hearts and get ready to receive My gifts for My Bride! Together we will be unstoppable.”
Me: “This is exciting, Lord. Thank You!”
Jesus: “You are free, Erin! I’m here. I have never left you.”
Dream over…
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