Dream 286 – Jesus and Humility from Humiliation
Received on Wednesday, July 11, 2018
Communion
Dear Father,
Thank You for another day! Thank You for Your love. Thank You for all that we have. I love You. No matter what happens, I love You! Since I have come to know You in the depths of my despair, I cannot imagine living a life here without You.
Father, my head hurts today. My neck hurts so badly that my stomach is sick. I see the brain specialist in just a few days and I am scared. I opened the file on my films and I can see the infected area compared to the other healthy half of my brain. I am scared.
Father, I do not want surgery. Please let us be able to go to the place of our hearts instead, just as You have previously promised us. I long for the smells and the beautiful air. I long to see everything one last time just in case I am no longer able to see.
Oh Father, I realize that I am sounding like a baby right now, so please forgive me. You are a great mystery to me so perhaps this is how You will heal me. Perhaps this is the place where my children are to flourish, just as You have also promised. I do not know.
I feel as if I have done everything in the manner You have instructed me to do. We have waited on You and have continued to live our lives as normal as we possibly can, especially given that we know that You have a plan greater than our imaginations.
Whenever I ask You, ‘How can this even be possible?’, You patiently remind me that You are our Father and the King Who owns the cattle on a thousand hills. Since You are our Creator, You have full control over the course of all of it. Without You, there is no hope. Apart from You, there is only death.
Lord, my life and the lives of my children, family and friends are all in Your hands today and every day. We need not one miracle, but several miracles. If it were just myself and my husband, we could manage, but the doors are also shut for our children, especially our sons.
When I was my sons’ ages, I was already planning my future with great excitement. While we have encouraged all of them to go forward with living as we do not know for certain when all this will come to be, each one says the same thing…’The Lord is having us wait on Him just like He has you waiting.’
What can I say to them in reply, especially because I know this to be true, at least based on our current circumstances? While a life with You surrendered to Your Will is an exciting life, I now understand how difficult it was for the Israelites in the desert to patiently wait for You.
It was not too long ago that I would scoff at the impatience of the Israelites. After all, they had seen God part the Red Sea. They had seen God release them from their enemy’s grip and certain death. He created a pillar of light by night and a cloud by day. How could they not believe and trust in Him fully?
Well, I can now say I understand why. We have experienced so many miraculous events by the hand of God just as He has promised, yet here I am wondering if I have heard from Him correctly. Even though He then sends signs to confirm His Words, along with a gift of live to show me He is with me, I am still scared.
This morning, there was one baby woodchuck waiting for me to bring peanuts. The little guy came to greet me and allowed me to pet him while he ate. Every time a construction truck drove by, he would run under the deck before coming back out.
He stayed right next to my leg, using it to hide him from their sight and to shelter him from danger. Despite this, I could still fill his little body shake and his heart beating. I told him that, if he stays on our property, he would be safe, but, down there, he will be trapped. He looked up at me almost as if he could understand what I was saying.
He then stood up on his hind legs to get a better look. I assured him he would be okay. Oh Father, I am that little woodchuck. Please forgive me for my anxiousness. Believing in Your promises gives me hope and a future. Believing that I am crazy only gives me fear, a fear I know only comes from the enemy.
Father, school starts for our girls in around 50 days or so. How will all of this come together? While this is simply impossible in my human mind, nothing is impossible for You. Oh Father, all of our hopes are in You and You alone.
Jesus: “Erin, come up.”
Jesus was standing right there in front of me. He was smiling at me with a love that could never be quantified or adequately described.
Jesus: “If I care about your little woodchuck, how much more do I care about you? I love you. Please trust Me, Erin. You have nothing to lose here. As I have you, your husband, children and friends, why worry about tomorrow? I know your needs before you ask. Have I ever let you fall?”
Me: “No, Lord. However, when I have acted on my own, I have been humiliated.”
Jesus: “Then this is the beginning of becoming humbled as you cannot have one without the other. This is also the beginning of wisdom for you.” He smiled.
Me: “While I would never want to repeat this, my severe humiliation is what led me here in the first place. It also led me to more knowledge of You and Your ways. I was brought very low by my own selfish desires. I guess this led to wisdom.”
Jesus: “Yes, Erin, but even more than that. Others have also gained knowledge from your experiences. Now, I will not let you fall. I am within your gates and you will not fall. I will help you at the break of day. I am pleased by your surrender to Me and My purposes. Since you love Me and your hope is in Me, I will not delay.
“I will do all that I have promised. Your times of rest and reflection are coming to a close for I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe even if you were told. And no, Erin, this is not referring doom and destruction, understand? Now, enjoy your day as joy is waiting for you. You are loved, Erin!” He hugged me.
Dream over…
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