Dream 476 – Personal Dreams wrapped around my surgery
Finished on Monday, February 15, 2021
Background: While I was not expecting a Nest dream to be posted, I did have a number of personal dreams in this last week. However, I now realize, as per Jesus’ instructions from earlier today, that these were actually now meant to be shared as Nest dreams. This is unusual as He did not prewarn me that this would be happening. As you know (from Dream 475), I had surgery on Thursday (February 11th, 2021).
However, what you didn’t know was exactly what this surgery was. I had a rare condition that required surgery. I had an “Intercostal Abdominal Hernia between two ribs in my back”. I would later find out that it was my liver that was doing the pushing. In the meantime, I am in need of prayers as I have little or no feeling in the surrounding areas of where the surgery took place.
Received on Wednesday, February 10, 2021 (the day before my surgery)
Thank You for another day! Thank You for being my Father. Thank You for being my Best Friend. Thank You for always being with us, both through thick and thin. You are always with me no matter what. You supernaturally bless us. I can never give You back even one ounce of the love and grace You have given me. All things are possible because only You can grant it.
We have been under extreme attacks this week. There are some downtrodden people in our house. However, we have no real reason to worry. We have done nothing on our own strength or by our own means. If You take care of the improbable, then surely You will also take care of the Impossible. You are the God of the Impossible. When my husband and I then prayed on this, I felt something I hadn’t felt in a very long time…
My soul was well. I was at peace. You have never once failed me. You have never once failed us. You are God. You are my Father, my Friend and the Lover of our souls. Thank You, Father! I love You so much. So, now I face tomorrow. It is an uncertain situation. I will be going to my first surgery in 12 years in which I will be completely under.
This one is a bad one. This surgery was canceled twice on me because of COVID-19. The time has now finally arrived. The surgeon has never performed this type of surgery as my condition is extremely unusual. It has been referred to as an ‘Intercostal Abdominal Hernia through my ribs”. They are not sure if it is a problem with my liver, stomach, intestines or lungs.
They won’t know what is causing this until they go in. This is because they were not able to attain an MRI due to my pacemaker. I am scared. It is not that I am afraid of the surgery, it is that I am not a fan of being under anesthesia. I asked if they could keep me awake, but they said no. I later read some beautiful Scripture notes by a Nest Sparrow from Pennsylvania. These reminded me that God’s promises are true…
- Revelation 21:4-5
- Psalm 42:1-2
- Psalm 8:1
- Isaiah 60:1-2
Father, I cling to the lifeboat of Your Words, even in rough seas. Today has been filled with tears of thanksgiving, as well as memories. Oh, how fast time has flown by. The years are truly gone like minutes. My children have grown so quickly. I miss my children when they were still little and full of joy and wonder. They had so many simple discoveries…
- The velvet ears of my yellow Labrador
- A ladybug on their hands
- Jumping up and down simply for the joy of jumping
- Rolling in the grass
- The smell of flowers
- Running through the pumpkin patch
- Watching the otters swim at the aquarium
- Eating ice cream in the sunshine in a playground
Now that they are 23, 21 and 19, it is hard to believe that all of these years have gone by. For most of their childhoods, my children have never known me when being in full health. It has been that long. However, You used all my mishaps for Your glory, not mine. I was not on a good path.
Though my journey has been a painful journey, it has been an epic one… one like no other! I am not sure what tomorrow’s surgery will bring. I only know that I pray I am given Your grace to stay in this fight. I have yet to see the promises You have here for me. I long for Your glory to be revealed throughout the Earth.
Jesus: “Erin, come up.”
I ran from my side yard to my front yard by the stream. There was Jesus with a huge smile. He was wearing His robe of purple, along with a beautiful crown with spires. His majesty took my breath away. I fell to my knees. I had no more strength as I wept just a few yards before Him. He came over to me right away and reached down to pick me up into His arms. I wept…and even as I write.
Jesus: “I have you, Erin. I am always with you. Through your pain, your heartbreaks, your trials and your worries, I was with you. I was even with you in that empty seat next to you on Saturday and Sunday services. I held your hand when you had great fear and trembling. I stood there and comforted you during your losses. As the winds grew stronger and wave after wave crashed over you, I was there to keep your head above the water.
“When you didn’t have money to fight, I was there to provide for you. I was there with you to stand for your children. I kept injustice from overwhelming you. I was with your father and mother to greet them because of your prayers and petitions. I comforted them as you prayed I would. I delight in you, Erin. My love for you will never fail. My promises are true. I am not finished with you yet. You are not done here. Do not give up. There is more to do.”
Me: “Thank You, Lord. I want to be stronger. I want to be able to do all that You said I would one day do. My life is Your life. My life is in Your hands. My body is in Your arms. I trust you, Lord. Do with me what Your Will is. I am overwhelmed by Your love. You care for me in such detail every day. Even though You have a world to run, You still turn and notice me.
“You carry me. However, You don’t just carry me. You also carry my husband, my children and my friends. You carry all of Your beloved Bride throughout the world. You care about each of us.” I began to cry. “Hurry, Lord. For our sake, please hurry. We are growing so weary now.”
Jesus: “I am carrying you. Allow Me to carry you. Allow Me to fill you with Living Water. Allow My breath to fill your lungs with the pure air of Heaven, air that also gives life. I am with you.” He smiled. “However, for now, allow Me to carry you.”
I closed my eyes. I then felt Him removing my burdens and heaviness.
Received on Saturday, February 13, 2021 (two days after my surgery)
Thank You for another day! Thank You for Your love and grace. Thank You for Your provision. Thank You for the sun and warmth on a cold winter’s day. I woke up today not breathing well. My lungs feel heavy. While my surgery went well, I am feeling that I need to move around. My body is agitated and I am restless. My area around my left ribcage down to my hip is numb. It feels similar to going to the dentist and the Novocain hasn’t worn off yet. It also reminds me of the stitch area that was caused by my C-Section for my daughter’s birth.
Received on Sunday night, February 14, 2021 (three days after my surgery)
I am scared! I am not feeling well. I now wish that I had never gone through with this surgery. I still have no feeling around the wound area on my left side. My lungs still hurt too. Oh Father, I love You! Please have mercy on me. Please don’t allow this. I trust fully in Your promises for me. However, when everything hurts, so does my heart. Oh Lord, it hurts my feelings that You don’t turn and heal me.
The medicine they gave me for this makes me ill. I can’t go back to the hospital during the pandemic. I could make everyone sick just because I am uncomfortable. I want to make our home safe. I don’t want anyone to get sick because of me. Father, I am afraid. The hospital didn’t feel safe. Please consider healing me. I know You have a greater plan here. As I am ‘just small’, please don’t forget me.
Jesus: “Erin, come up.”
I heard a knock on my front door. I hobbled there. I was in my current condition. I couldn’t tell who was at the front door at first as he was turned away. After I opened the door, the figure turned towards me. His head was covered with a hood. When he put his hood back, there was Jesus! He smiled at me. I began to cry. I went into His arms and He held me.
Me: “Lord…” I couldn’t speak as I was crying so hard. I soon gained my composure. “I feel like I have made many mistakes here. Perhaps I shouldn’t have gotten the surgery. Perhaps I should’ve trusted in Your promises of healing. Perhaps I should have held back on the surgery. Well, here I am and I now have made my body worse. Lord, You could have stopped me.”
Jesus: “Erin, I am here. I am with you. I was with you during your operation. You will be fine. While I know you don’t feel well, I am here.”
Me: “Oh Lord, please turn and heal me. However, even if You don’t, I will still love You. I know that everything You have allowed in my life has been for my greater good and for Your glory. Sometimes when I write, I feel as if my interpretation is off, I misinterpreted one of Your direction? While You said that You will make this not matter, I still didn’t…”
Jesus: “Sh sh sh…” He looked at me with such kindness. “Oh Erin, I am sorry for the troubles you have had. I know that trauma makes time stand still and never cease. You have suffered in all ways the enemy has been allowed. Although it doesn’t seem like you’ve had a reprieve from attacks, you are about to have this.”
Me: “Lord, can I invite You in?” We were still standing outside at the front landing of my earthly home. “Can I offer You some water, tea or apple juice? Even though nothing I have is truly fit for the King of kings, please come in.”
Jesus: “I would love to come in. Thank you.” He stepped over the threshold and into our home. “It looks wonderful, Erin. Do you like what was built for you?”
Me: “Oh yes, Lord. It is beautiful. There are a few things I would like to fix up and something one day I would like to do, but You already know this. In my business, it goes on and on. I am happy here. I am thankful, Lord. We live like royalty. We are truly blessed by You.” I was quiet for a moment. “Oh Lord, I am so sorry.”
Jesus: “Erin, please don’t apologize for seeing the possibilities. A place like this has many possibilities to expand, especially when considering the land surrounding you.”
Me: “Yes, but this is owned by others.”
Jesus: “I have promised you all of this. I haven’t forgotten this, not once. This was and is My land I give to you. I haven’t changed.”
Me: “Lord, please come and sit down.”
He walked into my kitchen. As He walked by, I saw my plants heal and turn to follow Him. I laughed.
Me: “It is very odd that Zoey and Snigglet are not barking.”
Jesus: Smiling. “Do not worry, Erin, they are napping.”
I offered Him my husband’s usual seat at the table. This was amusing to me as, in ‘real life’, my husband was sitting there right now. He took His rightful place at the head of the table. I was so excited to see Him here.
Me: “May I offer You anything?”
Jesus: “Yes. Bring over those two glasses and the bottle of water. I brought them over, along with some bread.”
I laughed as I had just walked by the counter where these were and there was nothing there just seconds before. He pointed for me to sit next to Him.
Me: “I am so glad You are here, Lord.”
Jesus: “While this is true, you still feel uncomfortable about both your personal appearance and the appearance of your home.”
Me: “Yes, Lord, I am. While You gave me both, neither are in top shape right now.”
Jesus: “Erin, I dwell in your body. We partake in communion together…”
He picked up the plastic bottle of water and it instantly turned into a handblown glass bottle with red wine.
Jesus: “Now, this bread we partake in represents My broken body and yours. When you take My bread, you also take My body as a symbol. I serve you by offering up My body to you. You accept this and partake in My covenant with you. It does not mean when you eat this that everything becomes easy. Now, please break off some bread as your brokenness to offer to Me.”
Me: I tore off a piece of bread, but instantly felt guilty. “Oh Lord, how can I do this when I have not been broken the same way as You? Oh Lord, I never suffered like You did.”
Jesus: “Yes, but your heart broke like Mine did, but in a natural sense. I was betrayed. I was alone. I was cursed and slandered. My clothing had been divided up and sold to the highest bidder. There was so much more that we have in common.”
I began to cry as I started to remember my things being taken and sold. I saw my living room being emptied. I saw other rooms being emptied. I then saw my bedroom closet… my clothing… being emptied out. This happened during the auction.
Jesus: “Erin, your head hanged low. You saw no end to your suffering. In many ways, you still feel this way. However, I see an end to your suffering. Now come, let us eat this bread and remember that they hated Me first. In this same way, they will also hate you. Now, let us drink this wine.”
Me: The bread tasted incredible. “Lord, this bread is clearly not from here. It is wonderful.”
Jesus: “This is bread prepared by the angels. Your cup has wine made from the finest vineyards in Heaven. However, this doesn’t represent a blood covenant. It instead represents a union of the Bride to her Groom.”
I shook my head as I looked down at my current state. I looked old and large and had such pain in my side.
Jesus: “Oh Erin, take heart for what is almost here. I know what you are thinking. Erin, drink this new covenant wine with Me. This is a Wedding Wine.”
Me: Taking a sip. “Lord, I am speechless. Given my current state, I am clearly not ready to be a part of the Bride. There has been no wedding yet!”
Jesus: “We are taking communion as a covenant together. Erin, the enemy asked for your life. The enemy asked for your destruction. However, he was not able to touch you. Be encouraged, Erin, as I will soon fulfill all of My promises to you. You will get your gifts that I promised you. All will be well here. Do not worry.”
I looked outside our window and saw hundreds of animals and birds of every kind. They were all gathering to get a glimpse of Jesus. I had such a smile in my heart.
Me: “I have never seen anything like this.” I laughed. “Lord, they are beautiful!”
Jesus reached out to take my hands into His. He looked me in the eyes.
Jesus: “I love you, Erin. It is I Who makes a way where there seems no way. Now, you are about to get some wonderful news. Like a sheep gate opening, all will then follow. There is good news coming and gifts to lift your head greatly. Now, I know, as I study you, that you wonder why I allow some things when they do not seem to make sense in the natural. However, they do. They make much more sense than you would ever expect.
“Your injuries are significant to My miracles for you. No one will then be able to say ‘Jesus only heals the well’. With you, no one will then be able to say ‘Jesus only heals the strong… or the rich… or the scholars… or the privileged’. They will instead say nothing as they will be left speechless and ashamed. Now, are you able to hold on a bit longer?” He held up two fingers like a pinch with a tiny space.
Me: Laughing. “Oh Lord, that is a signal for hitchhikers that you are only going a really short distance. Is this a signal that we are almost there?”
Jesus: Smiling. “Well then, perhaps this is a good analogy!”
Me: I held up two fingers and kept them just a tiny bit apart. “Okay, Lord, okay. However, please hurry, okay? When You pass me by for healing and I know You can… I have read and have even seen Your miracles… well, it hurts. I am like a hitchhiker waiting all day with no one to stop for me. So, when You, my Best Friend, Healer, Deliver and Lover of my soul, drives right past me and gives me that sign, well…”
Jesus: “Yes, I know. However, there is a big difference here. I am with you. I didn’t drive by.”
Me: “Okay.” Just then, my heart dropped suddenly in the natural. “Like that, Lord! What is this?”
Jesus: “We just had covenant communion together. Do not worry. I am with you. I will not leave you. Tell your husband that I love him too. He is Mine. I will never leave him.” He then pulled me away and looked me in the eyes. “As for your daughter, I am pleased. However, she must remain encouraged. She too will be so happy with what I am about to do with her and for her. All will stand amazed.
“However, I will also heal your house, your sons, your daughters, as well as your animals. Do not worry. I have you. Breathe, Erin. Do not be afraid. I delight in you.” He put His hand over mine as a cap. My hands were so small compared to His. “I am your cover. It is now time for you to rise up.”
Received on Monday, February 15, 2021 (four days after my surgery)
Thank You for another day! I am not feeling well. I did not come out of this procedure well. Please heal me. I am scared, Father. My husband and I drove past some protestors yesterday. I was surprised at who was there. They were older people, both male and female. These were people in their 60s and 70s. Their signs read as follows:
- End the tyranny
- Freedom is essential
- Fight for freedom
- Set us free
Two weeks of cautionary lockdowns have now equaled almost an entire year of war. This was not a battle to save the lives of those most vulnerable. It was instead meant to punish us and prepare us for ‘The Great Reset’, ‘The Great Global Agenda’.
My stomach is puffed out right now. The feeling on the top of my abdomen feels like when I was about to give birth. All I am missing is the contractions. My left side of my ribcage to my left hip is numb. Something is wrong. I pray I get back feeling. In hindsight, I now wish I had just backed out. Still, I need to stop looking back. I instead need to worry about getting my strength back and pray for divine healing.
On Friday morning, I had gone downstairs. I thought I would try to feed the birds with some seed. I then came back in and sat down at the dining table. The birds hadn’t been fed in a few days. There in front of me were many varieties of birds, all on one small eight-foot tree. There was a cardinal, a blue jay, a chickadee, a red breasted nuthatch and what looked like a pregnant robin. I then saw a sparrow. On a different tree, there was my black crow named ‘scout’ looking over all of this.
I then heard the Lord say in a very clear voice…
Voice of the Lord: “The same is true from the beginning of your dreams!”
I instantly recalled the dreams about my path. In getting to the ladder, there were odd looking birds. Well, I thought this to be odd, but that was because this was before I was a bird watcher and feeder. Now these are here and now. I then recalled the massive war raging all around me. Still, God illuminated my path. Angels from Heaven lined the path. They held swords over me to form a roof or cover. Swords signify truth.
There was also snow on this path. There is snow now also. Then there were the dragons, both black and red. They wrote many lies on massive books. Lies are like a wildfire in dry grass, kicked up by tumultuous winds. This caused a firestorm which cannot be easily put out. The path of a firestorm is unpredictable. This was all to prevent me from going to God for the great ceremony.
I didn’t understand everything before, but now it was making more sense. As it was in the beginning, so it shall be in the end. Things which occurred then are taking shape now. It is remarkable. However, something has changed. People are now horribly discouraged. We were hoping to get to our mailbox after many weeks, but my surgery and storms coming will likely delay our travels again. This is so depressing.
Father, please turn and heal the land. Please don’t allow the liars to prosper. Please rise up in us and turn to heal all of us who love You. When I think of truly wicked stories, You remind me that there is a reason You will come and do something in our days that we would not believe even if we were told. Surely the world is now much worse than Sodom and Gomorrah and even ‘as in the days of Noah’.
Thank You for sheltering so much evil from us as I would have had difficulty living a daily routine knowing how much evil is truly happening against children, the elderly, the meek, the unaware and those with simple and trusting hearts. It makes me cry when I hear of organ harvesting and genetic altering. There is also the slaughtering of Christians all over the world. Well, this list truly goes on and on. Father, You see all of this. Please don’t delay, in Jesus’ Name, Amen! Matthew 13 & 24 came to mind.
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