Dream 593 – God is in control during our Trials
Finished on Sunday, April 3, 2022
Received on Saturday, April 2, 2022
Communion
Dear Father,
I am forever grateful for all You have done for me and my children over the years. You have really done miracle after miracle concerning us. While I sometimes wish I could have a redo, reset or reverse, this is not how life works. For some reason, over time, I remembered the good in the people you brought on my life’s journey. This helped make the bad recede. I then remember only vague memories of the great pain and disbelief.
Today, You took me back over the evil done to me and my children. This evil was done for no good reason at all. While I tend to not forget main events, I rarely read old journal entries because they contain the details. Quite simply, these are just too painful. Why is it that certain people decide to take advantage of someone when they know you are at your very lowest point? They act friendly, but then turn diabolical.
A windstorm caused our internet to have trouble on our tower. A technician came out to repair it. I needed to make a way for him behind an industrial rack. In my office, I have a wicker basket that contains photos, documents and some of my old journals. I then ventured onto some from when my oldest son was born. This had so many memories of the persecution I had in Bend OR. Rereading this reminded me why I would have ever been persuaded to leave this place. Here are some early tidbits from God…
- Some date in September 2011: The Lord spoke to me in a dream: “Remember, Erin, I made a new covenant with you at Shavuot (Pentecost). Your enemies in this next season will come to nothing. I have a plan for you. Take heart, have joy and watch what I am going to do for you. I am going to do something in your days you would not believe even if I told you. There is justice. I have promised. I will tell you when to move and what to do. I will not change My mind. I will build a house for you. Men of honor and wealth will seek you out. This is a promise in My Name and is sealed and signed with My signet ring.”
- September 29, 2011: I had a dream I was swimming in murky waters with sharks. All of my friends were standing on the shore watching me.
- October 3, 2011: The Lord spoke to me in a dream when I felt unworthy of a victory: “Don’t say you are not worthy. You must go wherever I send you. You must say what I tell you. Don’t be afraid of your enemies. I will be with you and protect you. I am the Lord and I have spoken.”
- November 10, 2011: The Lord brought my attention to great judgment on Penn State. The Lord punished them.
- November 27, 2011: Dream of a home built for us.
- Date unknown: I was becoming discouraged while praying. I felt the Lord speak in me: “Erin, let Me rebuild you. You will not rebuild yourself. I will rebuild you effortlessly.” I was then led to Zephaniah 3:16-20.
Received on Sunday, April 3, 2022
Communion
Dear Father,
Thank You for another day! Thank You for Your love and great grace. Thank You for fulfilling my promises years ago. These promises were directly from You. Thank You for granting all my prayers and even some to spare. Who is like You, Father? I had quite the dream the night before last…
Sub-Dream 1 “The huge paver patio with a bear” begins…
I was given an expansion to our property. While I owned it the whole time, I was unaware of it. It was out on the Pacific Northwest. The house was in a treed area. It was a forest of pine and cedars. The terrain was lush and humid. I felt I should take my time while examining this new place. I was in the backyard and the landscape was beautiful. Still, I could tell that the area had not been looked after for a long time.
I had a broom and was sweeping a slate stone paver patio. Winter had ended and there were now blossoms. This patio had a lot of debris on it. My broom swept up big scrolls of flattened wet leaves. They curled up with the force of my broom. Under the leaves was black sludge from a long wet winter. It was the decay of foliage. As I extended my sweep to the back where the woods were, I realized how big this was.
I was in shock at the size of this patio. It was easily 150 feet by 100 feet. The pavers were in slate with greys and greens. I did the math in my head. Each paver averages about $10 a square foot. Then there is the labor and sealant. For just the pavers alone, we are talking $150,000.
I continued to sweep away all the debris to expose this beauty. I then came to a large rock outcropping. The boulders were massive. One was jagged and looked like half a cracked egg. As the sun broke through the trees, I saw the glimmer of fur from an animal in the cave.
Me: “Hmm, it must be sleeping. I will just leave it alone.”
The pavers took the path around the side of the outcropping. There was a large hole between the rocks. I then became startled when I noticed a large bear sleeping in hibernation with three of her cubs. They looked as if they were nursing as the mom slept. The surrounding place had been abandoned for ten or more years. I then heard the bear waking up. She started to make huffing noises. I quickly left the area.
Sub-Dream 1 over…
My dream from last night…
Sub-Dream 2 “An elegant house, a missed concert” begins…
I was in a large dining room. In this room, I had windows all around. There was a sofa, two chairs, a game table with a puzzle and pieces off to the side. It was elaborately decorated and complex. Clearly, a big fabrication budget went into this. It was so decorated that it was almost too decorated.
In this dream, I was young and so were my children. I had elaborate shelves with journals and photo albums arranged by years. This is something I have always wanted to do. I had one stack of items still left to organized. My mom then appeared in my dream. She was very critical and surprisingly so…
Mom: “Erin, while this room is elaborate, your attention to details is nothing if you can’t complete your puzzle or even your tasks.”
I was sad as I had done so much. She couldn’t see what I had already accomplished. Despite her criticisms, I was glad she was here. I needed her to look after my kids so that I could travel through Maine to Boston for a concert. I suddenly realized that I had not left myself enough time. It was 2 hours until the concert started, but a 5 hour drive.
My daughter: “Mom, you won’t make it.”
Me: Laughing. “I would rather stay here with you anyways. I am not going to allow a concert ticket to dictate my time. The concert ticket didn’t cost that much and is hardly worth the trouble.”
We received a knock on the door. When I opened the door, there stood a formal looking butler. There was a limousine parked in the driveway. He handed me an invitation. I looked at the invitation…
“The Passing of the Mantle Dinner
You and your family are invited to attend a dinner at the estate of ‘name’ (an elderly designer I did not know of)”
I turned to find my children to ask them if they wanted to go. Well, they were already standing there all dressed up and eager to go.
Me: “Alright, alright, we’ll go to the dinner.”
I changed into my formal dinner attire. I then found my mom and addressed her…
Me: “Mom, I am no longer going to the concert I had tickets to. We are going to a fancy dinner instead. Would you like to come with us? The children are coming too.”
Mom: “Sure. I wouldn’t miss it.”
We soon arrived at the estate. It was so opulent that it was out of this world. Everything was the finest. This was so fancy that I wondered why we were even invited. We were seated for dinner at an elaborate table. The servers all wore white with white gloves. They did not speak to us as they served us. Then again, my children, my mom and I never said much either. A bell then rang out…
Head butler: “Please stand for her Royal Highness.”
We did. A stately woman then entered with her attendants. I did not recognize her.
Woman: “Thank you for coming to my banquet, Erin. While you do not know me, I know you. How do you like my humble abode?”
Me: “It is so beautiful. We are all speechless.”
Woman: “Yes, I had everything rewired and updated. Everything is brand new. There are no chips, scuffs, cracks or flaws. The systems are advanced. All has been prepared.”
Me: “What are you preparing for?”
Woman: “Well, Erin, to give this home to you.”
Me: “Wait! What? I can’t take this. This is too big. This is so generous.”
Woman: “Why do you insult me like this? I am at the end of my journey. God has blessed me. I have no heirs. You are my beneficiary.”
Mom: In a very angry tone. “Hey, wait, she doesn’t need this. She didn’t do anything to deserve this.”
Me: Ignoring my mom. “Thank you for thinking of us.”
Woman: “Erin, God called me 22 years ago to begin the renovations. The home was in great disrepair. My children and husband were killed in a car accident and I was overcome with grief. An angel then visited me while I slept. He showed me my family residing in Heaven with the Lord. They were building a home for me in the city. God told them He needed 22 years to fit my standards. While I know He was kidding, perhaps He was correct.
“I spent all my time worrying about material things. I did not appreciate what God had given me. Well, here I am. I am at the end of my days. The Lord spoke to me in my sleep. He instructed me. This house has many rooms. I have great fields and vineyards that need workers. You have a great task here, a great work. It is time for me to go now as I have completed my work here. God is now calling me Home as He has now completed the place He has built for me.”
Just then, two barristers entered the dining room. The woman signed a document. The men then stamped, signed and initialed the documents. These were the two witnesses to her signature.
Woman: “Then this is finished. I must go. I have more properties and dinners all over the world to attend to.”
The barristers came down to hand me the documents. While I saw the date ‘June 1, 2022’ on the document, I was not sure what this meant. I began to cry.
Woman: “Do not cry. Do not worry about how you will cover expenses or taxes or anything else. The Lord warned me that you would worry. This too is covered. There are many rooms, but also many workers. Now, I have spent my life preparing for this day and I cannot wait. It is time for me to go.”
She got up and came over to me. She took a ring off of her finger and placed it on mine. It was stunning.
Woman: “This ring is now your ring. My attendants will show you around so you are not lost.”
She hugged me, but then was gone.
My daughter: “Mom, I am glad that you didn’t go to that concert!” We laughed.
Sub-Dream 2 over…
Me: “Lord, I felt You call me to go through my old journals. They were brutal. Why did You want me to read through these painful torturous journals of records of my personal non-stop stupidity?”
Jesus: “Erin, come up!”
He once again spoke to me while I sat in my devotional chair. His Voice was very clear.
Jesus: “Erin, this is because I was with you the entire way. I carried you. Every time you were on your last reserves of food or provision, I sustained you. The enemy even told you he was hoping you would die. He said this many times and I recorded these. In return, you never asked for his death or the destruction of any of your pursuers, of which you had many.
“Your friends deserted you because it was difficult to be around all your destruction. Though you cried out from the flames of the fiery furnace, your friends ran, your family betrayed you and your pastor humiliated you. This leader of your prayer group, the scribe of many books, told you ‘Surely, you are out of His favor’. You were exhausted. I allowed you to be crushed. I dismantled you so I could grant you a mantle.
“Let Me explain. You had designed a course for yourself. You had an idea of what a blessed life from God would look like. You fashioned a Proverbs wife for yourself (Proverbs 31). However, you did not have a husband to cherish you and love his children. You instead married a blacksmith of My choosing to shape you. Your ideas of who I was had to be changed.
“You thought you would be used for a higher purpose once you declared a thing. You thought things would happen your way if you did this or that. Well, I didn’t do this in the way you thought. I instead showed you a vision 22 years ago and sent My witnesses to explain the way you must go in order to have the mantle I had presented to you. You had to die to yourself.
“You needed to dismantle your ideas you had built your house on. This was done brick by painful brick. I tore down your walls. I obliterated your house down to the foundation. You then had nothing but My words and promises on which to rebuild your house, the house I planned for you to dwell in.”
Me: “It is interesting that the word liberation can be spelled using most of the letters in the word obliteration. I thought I was hated by You, Lord. I thought I was detestable in Your sight.”
Jesus: “Erin, de-test-able means you are not worthy at all of My testing and rebuke. I tested you amply.”
Me: “I was constantly being rebuked.”
Jesus: “Well, there was a constant learning curve. Habits and cycles are difficult to let go of.”
Me: “At times, they can even seem like a friend. Hard to describe.”
Jesus: “Some voices are louder than others. This does not mean they are wiser because they break the sound barrier. Remember that wisdom is often in the still small voice.”
Me: “I am so, so sorry, Lord. With what happened to me and my children, I was in shock. I was in clear shock at all the discoveries. I had compelling evidence, including recordings and photos. The schemes against me were wicked and deep. Despite this, justice still never came.
“In return, if I did even a small thing, a ridiculous amount of punishment came to me. So many attacks came. So many that it was clearly disproportionate. I prayed for those who did such horrible things to us. I believed the best in people, but was shocked at the horrible things done to us. I would never even think of this.”
Jesus: “I took you through this fiery furnace. Erin, I allowed all of these tests and trials so when you would finally be before My judgment seat, you would be held blameless.”
Me: “But, Lord, I am not!”
Jesus: “You still don’t understand then My own words. Erin, you have brought every sin before Me, both small ones and larger ones. You were given your verdict after you brought them before Me. For some, you were given a trial period, tests and more refining so you would no longer fall into temptations of various kinds. During this time of great testing, evil in many forms came against your household.
“Some came because of residual related troubles. Others I had used you to measure the hearts of others. Your sins were and are forgiven. However, there is always a sentencing and this often includes ‘time served’, understand? (He was talking ‘tongue in cheek’) You asked to be used by Me in greater measure. You wanted to serve Me with a ministry. I gave you a great call, a difficult journey and a foreboding path.
“Since you asked for much, much was demanded of you. So, what do I mean by this? If you write in your journal that you want to be used by Me someday, what are you then asking Me for? When you asked that your heart of hard clay be transformed into your heart of gold, did you think this would be easy for you? Erin, think of all that was necessary. Erin, what have you now learned through all of this?”
Me: “You have trusted me with much, so, of course, even more would be required. You never once told me that my life would be easy. You instead promised me good all of the days of my life. So, what is good? All that is lovely, kind and satisfying. It is the love of family and friends. It is an enduring love from You, Lord. It is Your enduring forgiveness. My brokenness was beautiful to You.
“It was in my dismantled state, in my rubble, in which You could rebuild, reshape and change me. You granted me more and more as I became less and less of myself. You could trust me with more when the ‘ME’ was gone. The more one seeks, the more one must lose. Blessed is the man who truly has it all in Jesus, You, Lord! While much will be required by You, great will be Your reward.”
Jesus: “Very good, Erin. Now, let’s discuss that first dream of the bear. The bear and her three cubs were sleeping. This entire dream signifies preparation for a great event. In this dream, you were shown a property out west. You were sweeping away debris. Sweeping away debris means you were clearing a beautiful path.
“The hibernating bears represent you and your house. You have been away in the trees as if sleeping. You and your children are as if sleeping. Well, the bear has now become restless as you are stirred awake from your deep sleep. Bears wake up in spring time. Erin, you, your household and your Nest friends are waking up.”
Me: “Lord, you are speaking about the Transformation, right?”
Jesus: “Spring is a good time. All is made brand new, Erin. Now, I am sorry for all you have endured. There has been so much pain, worry and disappointment. However, these were all necessary for what is to come.”
Me: “Lord, thank You for saving us from troubles.”
Jesus: “Erin, I have fed you and your children as fledglings at My Altar. I made promises to you that I continue to keep and fulfill. I bless those who bless you with 100-fold more than they bless you. Those who curse you then receive much more in troubles back to them. Pray.”
Me: “Lord, please have mercy as many do not realize that You are active in the world amongst us. This means they act as if You cannot see them.”
Jesus: “I see all. Now, rejoice over what is to come as this is good. Erin, I have adorned your mantle. I love you.”
Me: “I love You, Lord!”
Dream over…
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